Mushrooms & natural born contemplatives

Hello everybody this is my first serious post, and it is, of course, regarding the mushroom.

Recently I've been thinking about the meaning of things in my life, why i'm where I'm at ,etc... like most do. My contemplations have led me to believe psychedelics play a more crucial role in the overall grand scheme of things. I'm 20 years old and I've tripped once before on mushrooms, back when I was 16, and I had a bad trip. Don't remeber much, just that it wasn't pleasant. To make a long story short, I wasn't in the right setting, coupled with my lack of knowledge of the nature of the mush, and my ego-centric attitude at the time, I fought the drug and it made me pay for it. I am embarassed that I ate them in such a state of naivety. Looking back, I think that my bad trip has kind facilitated this false sense of anxiety that I have had for the past 4 years, its like I had a bad trip and it created a sense of anxiety in my normal life because of it.

I want to trip again and have a good trip, so that instead of feed this anxiety I can get rid of it.
Has anyone experienced a bad trip and the bad feelings/negative energy associated with it be transformed by having a good trip later on down the road? Do you feel like it calmed your ego and contributed to your humbleness?

I am reading the Perennial Philosophy, works of Aldous Huxley, author of the Doors of Perception. I'm trying to slowly become a humble man!

thanks for input

 

Trip alone a couple times first, this gives you time to get used to the feeling. I find most psychedelics make me sit back and listen to what others say, and only after I understand their opinion do I comment. I also find listening makes me realize how much people love to talk. Not only about themselves, but their thoughts and opinions.

 

A few months ago I had a really bad trip. For whatever reason I began feeling ill and a whole lot of negative energy began building. This expierience I found traumatizing and it took a while to get over it.

Anyways just last night I was alone at my place and I decided to take some shroomz I had lying around. Because of the last time I was pretty nervous and my trip started pretty rough but once I realized I wasn't gonna feel sick this time things turned around really fast.

I turned all the lights out and listened to the Beatles on my headphones...what a great idea!!!!!! The music was so possitive and that began to spill over into my thoughts. I got so much great insight into what the true meaning of life is...for me anyways. I figure life is about love...loving yourself and loving all people and living things just the same. I think if you can do that then you can be truly happy. As more and more possitive energy kept building I realized that tears of pure joy were streaming down my face.

This trip was the best one I've ever had. It gave me a new philosophy on how to live life to be truly happy and for the first time I feel like my life has true meaning.
I hope this helps...

 

thanks for the responses.

RylyC, how do you all feel about smoking weed before/during tripping?

the only time i've tripped, my tolerance to weed was really low and I think paranoia from pot was present before I started trippin.

I think if I was to smoke now and trip, well my tolerance is pretty high at this point, I don't think it would affect me as much, but you never know...so that's why I ask.

 

Iv'e never smoked weed. It is imposible to find ANY.