Why does life seem to be getting harder and harder?

Some of you may know the situation I've been in lately.

If you don't... I've been living in my VW... haven't been able to find much work. Having a lot of trouble paying bills, staying fed.

Now my VW keeps breaking down. Spending money I need for other things on fixing it.

On top of everything... Some of you know about the girl I met and dated a few months back. We broke up back in March but kept a good relationship. I have a lot of love for her and her children and the other day I decided to tell her how I feel. It turned into a bit of a debate, and under the influence of a few drinks, I said some things that weren't so kind.

Now she doesn't want to talk to me.

I take a bad situation and somehow make it worse by losing the best friend and source of light I've had in a long, long time.

I have truly had my soul crushed and I'm having a really hard time looking at things from the spiritual perspective that has gotten me through life.

I wonder that if karma exists, why am I going through this?

I am really scared of myself right now. I don't trust my instincts or my feelings anymore.

I feel more hurt an lost than I've ever been in my life... and could really use some advice.

 

I feel for you Staggerlee, I don't have any advice except to say that keep on keepin on! Things are bound to change even if slowly. Think on the good things you've got, it's beautiful there in New Mexico, If I could be there I sure would be!

 

I'd keep trying to explain myself. She can't ignore you forever. Try to get her to listen and straighten it out, if you can.

 

with patience and maybe hardwork something good will happen, something always happens in the end. look back to bad times in the past and you'll see it's true. it's just taking longer to happen this time.

the world is essentially a bunch of things constantly undergoing change. the challenge is to accept this and detach from it. firstly things seem less scary, and secondly you'll know it is only a matter of time before things go your way.

 

apologize to her. if the friendship is that important to you, its worth the effort of tracking her down and asking her to listen

 

I keep trying to... she just keeps ignoring me.

 

I have no advice, but I want to commend you on your character, as you're not just droning on blaming everyone but yourself. Many people do that, I probably do it alot too.
The fact that you show this states that you are of a strong minded person and if you set your heart to what you want to achieve, then most inevitably it will be so

Best wishes and good luck with everything!! Don't stop trying!

 

Yea it sounds like you're in a tough situation. Even though she ignores you keep persisting because eventually she will come around and realize that the friendship means so much more than a drunken argument. Good luck with your whole situation and I hope things improve.

 

Thanks... I keep trying to apologize and she is still ignoring me... It hurts me a lot to know I could hurt someone I care about, so badly, that they walk out of my life at the time I need them most.
I did talk to her for a couple minutes on friday... she said that it would be easier for me to get over my feelings for her if we didn't stay friends... then she hung up on me.
I really wish I had never brought that subject up... as I just want my friend back

 

me me me i think its the culture, the destructive modern way of living (or the lifestyle that is being forced on us...)