Yeah and we talked about that beforehand, but now that you've seen what it does, you know not to risk it again. Like you said.....lesson learned. So, no worries.
whats a bitch fuck top-notch? Oh look how cool you are you use drugs alot I actually base my character alot on you. Look I am awesome I have the word stoner in my name implying I inhale alot of weed! worship me!
he's not happy with me. at all. he's mad that i had a friend here that LEFT when i coulda died. how many times do i have to say it? my husband would NEVER LEAVE a person that could die that's why he's pissed at him.
Leave him the fuck alone. He actually cares and he's a good person so fuck with me alll you want but leave him the fuck alone.
sarcasm? cause he cares about me. he writes down what benzos i take so i can take less every day. he stands up for me cause we talk all the time. so i hope you are not being sarcastic.
i shouldnt be surprized (hey bill!! am i typing okay even though i dont wanna use caps??!?!?)..... that some people here are so judgemental. but somehow even though i expect it.... it shocks me that if someone tells a story and asks a QUESTION that all i get is these lectures..... i find it rather sick but if someone does a dumb thing or two and wants to change that people (some of you!) have to be SOOOO harsh. it was a scary experience for me and i wanted to know what you guys thought of that guy leaving..... i guess i should expect it. cause im the devil right? im addicted to benzos and you know i made a mistake? so let's just put me on a cross, beat me and then hang me. come on. i know a few of you want to. i just hope you are all perfect. i really do. cause some of you act like it.
The anger that you direct towards people on here would be energy much better spent on improving your own situation. As a former addict, I can honestly tell you that looking around at others will in no way help your situation, you need to look at yourself.
i plan on helping myself. im not in denial. tns knows this and so does my husband. im giving myself three days to cut down A LOT on the benzos n not drink and if i cant do it on my own im going to rehab. my prob. is- i do not like being judged. the story i told here.... it's fucked up. i shoulda known better but it happened and i dont like being judged. i WILL look out for myself. okay? i just dont wanna be judged n hated on cause im not perfect.
From what I've read in this thread the only person who has gone out of their way to 'judge' you has been that idiot troll. The rest of the people on here seem to be trying to give you a little helpful advice and a small dose of the reality that your recent posts have spelt out that you are avoiding. You may not like the way it's worded, but that's life.