Morning glory seeds definitely work. (Really long and detailed; 2 posts)

I washed about 720 Heavenly Blues and then soaked them in water for somewhere between 12 and 24 hours. Yesterday evening... I think it was about 7:30... I chewed and swallowed all of the mushy seeds with some fortune cookies and cranberry juice.

For some reason I had little faith that this would actually work (obviously, because I ate 720 seeds), so I had made some plans for the evening. I kinda expected that all I'd feel was a body high and some euphoria or something, or some nausea and tiredness and trails. Anyway, at about eight thirty I went out to my trailer to smoke a bowl. I had noticed by this point that I was having some difficulty concentrating and I felt a bit flushed. I dunno if this was all in my head though.

Around nine I noticed that my vision was starting to go just a little bit strange. Nothing major.. just kind of imprints of objects left on my vision. Kind of like when you stare at a light and then you look away and there's a spot in your vision, only with everything.

So, at some point my friend was going to be having a birthday party. At about 9:10 her mom called me and said to come over. I arrived, feeling a little overwhelmed. I had this sort of getting ready to take off feeling. Again, nothing I couldn't blame on placebo, though. I was having trouble following what her parents were saying to me, and there were curtains of multicolored flowers (like beaded curtains, only with fake flowers) and leis everywhere and pictures of dolphins.

I got inside her house, and there was country music blasting, and her family members everywhere, from extremely old ladies to little kids running everywhere. I started to worry a little bit.

As the party went on (about an hour and 40 minutes at this point), I was able to keep my composure pretty well, until about the last twenty minutes. I was really unable to follow conversations, and my vision was starting to become really... unreliable, I guess. I kept taking really deep, fast breaths and then slowly blowing them out. I had such a heavy body high, I didn't know what to do with myself. I didn't feel tired or lethargic at all like other people have described; In fact, I was shaking a little bit, and I'm pretty sure my heart was beating fast.

My friend John was also there; I kept following him around telling him how weird I felt and pointing out all the flowers everywhere. He found these little plastic multicolored animals and was giving them to me; I got really into this. Believe me, I was trying as hard as I could to look sober because this family REALLY does not like me because of my drug use, but these animals were just too much. John kept talking to me and for some reason everything he said was just TOO MUCH. I couldn't keep myself together around him; he would say something silly and i'd just say, "NO!!! SHH!!"
I remember him saying, "I don't know what you're talking about. You're just walking around mumbling."

I was freaking out because I didn't want my friend's parents to know something was up. So I just kept telling him to please stop talking. Of course he didn't listen.

After that, I was really overwhelmed. I called my friend Lisa and asked her to please come and pick me up early from my friend's party. I couldn't really explain to her what was going on, so she just got pissed and said no. She thought I'd just taken a bunch of xanax or something.

So I went back inside and tried to ride out the last ten or so minutes of this party. I stood there, just kind of looking around, and my friend's dad said, Ann (me) is just standing there laughing. I hadn't even known that I was laughing. But I definitely wanted to.

After the party my friend and I were going to "Grad Night," a party put on by her highschool to encourage the recently graduated kids not to go out and drink and drive. Grad night was from 11 to 5 PM.

We finally left the party and my friend was REALLY pissed at me for coming to her b-day party "high." I honestly had not thought it was gonna come on like that, but I felt pretty guilty. Plus she was being really sketchy about everything and wouldn't give me straight answers about what was making her upset. I was just so confused already. I asked her and John if what was going on was real or if I had just imagined the whole thing.

We got to the school, and we got out of the car. I said, "I really need to smoke a bowl." My friend said, "Well, you'd better do that now, because they're not gonna let you do it in there." She was really mad. I didn't smoke, obviously, and we just went towards the school.

As we were walking through the parking lot John said, "Is that a pirate ship?" (the party was pirate-themed, apparently) and I said, "Please don't say that right now." I did not want him making me think we were going into a pirate ship. He said, "Why?" And I just begged him not to again. Anyway, as we were walking from the parking lot he kept saying it, and I kept begging him to please not. I was seriously pleading with him. I just wanted him to have mercy on me. My other friend was just laughing. I walked right in front of a bunch of cars and could've easily been hit. I didn't even notice till afterwards.

We got to the check-in table, and by this time everything John said was making me freak out again. I tried to beg him not to talk to me. I said, "Please stop. There are cops here. I do not want to get in trouble." Or something like that. When we checked in, we had to give our names (I could barely remember mine) and get wristbands.

The guy put my wristband on, and the lady next to him said, "I'm not sure you're in yet. Just wait there." Or at least I thought that was what she said. There was apparently one cop standing by the table talking to some other people. I thought there were cops everywhere. I asked my friend if we were going to get searched, and said I wanted to run away. She said that I should and she didn't know if we were going to get searched. She was messing with me on purpose because she was mad at me.

So at some point we decided that we could go on in to the party and we tried to go through one entrance. I thought I heard someone say that the people with the green wristbands were going to be watched throughout the party. I thought my wristband was green, but it was blue, just like everyone else's.

Anyway, we were heading inside, but they told us to take the other entrance (this turned out to only be because there was a place where we could check our bags in and stuff but I thought we were gonna get in trouble). So we went in this other entrance. They had totally converted the outside of the multi-purpose room into a pirate ship. We had to climb this little bridge and then crawl into the room.

I was terrified. Everything had been made to look like an underwater pirate theme. There were sparkling streamers everywhere. And I thought everyone was a cop. So my friend said, "We're going into the bathroom." And I followed her.

The bathroom had blue plastic everywhere with a kind of water pattern on it. I was so freaked out. I thought I was already in trouble, and I asked my friend if I should stay in the bathroom the whole time, and she said that I probably should (!). So I stayed in the bathroom for about fifteen minutes by myself in a stall, and I looked at my pupils in the mirror at one point. They were HUGE. I tried to get people to come into my stall to "save me" because I couldn't figure out what to do.

These effects were actually not unpleasant, but I was just so confused and I was definitely at the wrong place with the wrong people. I called my friend Lisa again from some girl's phone trying to get her to come help me. When this girl came in the bathroom I immediately ran into the stall to hide from her. She said, "Are you hiding from me?" And I said, "Yes, I'm hiding from you. Can I use your phone?"

About fifteen minutes later, after I'd puked a little bit to try to make myself feel better, Lisa finally got there. Once she knew I was tripping she was much more sympathetic and went to get me some water and tried to help me figure out what was going on. She left me in the bathroom a few times because I refused to come out but at some point I finally asked her if there were cops out there and they were searching people and she said no. She helped me so much just by telling me the truth. By this time I was starting to have some visuals, I think.

 

Anyway, I went outside the bathroom finally, and I was overcome with joy. I wasn't going to die!! I didn't get arrested!! I went up to everyone and said, "I don't have to hide in the bathroom!!!!" However, I was still really paranoid that I was being watched and there were teachers everywhere. It would come in waves. I'd feel like God, and then i'd feel scared and vulnerable.

I tried to go into the gym where they had music playing and stuff, but every time I went in I would get really overwhelmed and go back outside. For maybe half an hour I sat at a picnic table by myself and tried not to look out of my mind. Some guy tried to get me to play ping pong with him a few times, because I was just sitting by myself, but I kept refusing. Looking back on it, I'm sure I seemed like a total bitch. What likely came across as unfriendliness, though, was just the fact that I could barely form a sentence.

Everyone's shadows had colored auras. Everything was moving. Everything was morphing into something else. Everyone was smiling and waving at me. I kept laughing even though I was just sitting there by myself. It was getting really intense and I just wanted to sit and enjoy it, but I would've looked really suspicious just sitting there out in the middle of the crowd. Especially because it was very obvious that I was not sober. So, I called Lisa again and asked her to walk me back to the bathroom so I could throw up. She finally agreed, and once I was in there, I was stuck. Again.

I spent over an hour in there, by myself.

I stared at my hand. The blood in my skin formed kaleidoscope patterns, the walls were waving, the blue plastic WAS water, I WAS water. I was in a room made of hexagons within the bathroom, and the hexagon room was expanding into something frightful. All the tiles had kaleidoscope patterns. I could see through my skin. I saw eyes everywhere. I closed my eyes and there was a very realistic bright green eye right between my eyes staring at me. I just sat on the toilet watching everything. My hand would change shapes and textues, and move around. My skin was melting off. The screen on my phone was melting. The picture on my phone was moving around in the "wind". I kept hearing laughing, echoing, repeating, and music. Sounds would slow down and speed up, get lower and higher, get muffled and clearer. I thought everyone was talking about me. It was sooo beautiful, but I had been so freaked out earlier (not to mention the fact that i was "stuck" in a bathroom stall) that I could not help feeling terrified. I also puked a few times. Each time I would feel wonderful afterwards.

There was a hypnotist on the microphone in the MPR next door and I listened to him. He helped me down from my terror a few times temporarily, until he started saying something about a scholarship. I didn't have a scholarship, and at this point I realized that he was not talking to me, and I was still alone in the bathroom.

I was really scared again.. Mostly because I was so scared someone was going to notice how long i'd been in the bathroom that I was trying to resist the trip, when all I wanted was to just go with it. I could taste the light, and it tasted bad. Kind of metallic and... green. If my phone had gotten service in the bathroom, I might've called my mom and told her how terrified I was and asked her to come and pick me up. I just wanted to hug my mom for a while.

My mom and I barely even talk. I am ordinarily very independent from her and don't feel particularly connected to her. During this trip, I realized that I love my mom. I wanted to tell her this, that I hadn't shown her this enough, or even realized it myself, but she was a part of me and I loved her. I am so happy that I feel okay with loving her again.

At some point someone walked in on me while I was sitting on a toilet in a stall. She opened the door and I just smiled and said, "Hi."
She got freaked out and felt really bad and kept apologizing. I just kept saying, "It's fine. Really. Don't worry about it."
Haha.. It was the last thing on my mind that some "person" walked in on me while I was sitting on a toilet.

I would leave my stall sometimes, moving to a different stall, looking in the mirror, and at one point I noticed that there were some party favors in a treasure chest on the floor. So I'd keep running out to grab some and then running back into my stall. I didn't want anyone to walk in. I looked for a pen and paper in my bag so I could write myself notes (I really wish I'd had this, both so I could reassure myself and so I could look back at it later).

Keep in mind this whole time that I was having tons of open eye visuals. More intense than the closed-eye visuals. I saw faces made of patterns and eyes. I saw an elephant humping a blob of energy in slow-motion. Finally Lisa came back into the bathroom. As soon as she was there I felt safe again and came out to tell her that I'd been in the bathroom. She was like, "Yeah, me too." And I said, "No. Since the last time I saw you."

She took me out of the bathroom to another place on campus. Apparently the party had been all over campus, and there were a bunch of things going on I didn't even know about. I asked her if she could tell me how I could get my mom to come and pick me up before I got stuck in the bathroom again. She didn't really know, but she tried to talk me into staying.

She asked me if it was just too much and I said yes. She said it was okay and rubbed my back a little. At the time I felt so thankful for this. I just felt so connected to her. She was so understanding. I asked her if there was anywhere I could go sleep and she took me to this room where there were beanbag chairs all over the floor, and it was dark, and they were just playing movies one after another.

I was so happy!! How come nobody had told me about this before?? I went in and lay down and watched the movies. The screen was moving all around and covered in fractals, and the movies were hilarious. I kept looking to see if anyone else was enjoying this as much as I was.
Later John came in and lay down next to me. Again, I was so thankful for this shred of connection. I felt so much love for him and Lisa; they were my true friends (well, are). I think the time in the bathroom was definitely the peak, and at this point I was coming down a little. I wasn't hallucinating as much, and I was kind of able to look back and reflect on what had happened in the past few hours. Time was still passing extremely slowly, though, and I still saw fractals all over the place.

I also had very intense CEVs and was making up all this wonderful (at the time, at least) music in my head. My friend who had had the b-day party came in, and I begged her to come and talk to me (I had tried to talk to her several times earlier, and she just ignored me). She came towards me and I said, "I'm so sorry about your party. I didn't know it was going to be so intense." And I begged her to forgive me. She said it was okay and asked me if I had had any fun, and said that I'd been gone the whole night. I didn't really know how to respond; "fun" seemed like such a shallow concept after what I'd been through.

I finally left the party with Lisa at 5, and we went to Denny's with some friends (not my idea). In the parking lot, we huddled together to keep warm. I felt so connected to her and felt a deep love for her. She is my best friend, and we're really close, but I felt a new sense of connection to her. We were all very tired, and we just kind of sat there at the table and didn't eat. I was still feeling very high and having difficulty conversing with this large group of people I couldn't identify with.

At about seven Lisa and I got back to her house. We laid in bed and smoked a bowl and the visuals came back. I was seeing faces in the smoke and fractals EVERYWHERE again. I could see the air moving around and it was very colorful. The blinds had a salmon and turquoise chevron pattern, and my hand was leaving blue trails.

We tried to go to sleep after smoking, and I finally fell asleep around 8 or 8:30. I woke up to my mom calling my cell phone at 12:30 telling me that I needed to get ready for work. Lisa got me to eat something, and I went home. I went to work from 3:30 to 8:30. I did fine, especially considering that I'd gotten only about four hours of sleep. All day I've kind of been looking through a sort of moving, buzzing film of brightness and off-colored patches.

I keep recalling the feelings I felt last night/ this morning and I just feel really strange still. I'm still pretty slow in conversation, even though I've talked all your ears off, so to speak, here in this post.

I really need more sleep. I think I'm going to do that now. Thank you very much for reading.

 

lol cool story.

but why is your school so awesome? man I wish my school had thrown parties like that! that sounds AWESOME for tripping.

 

yeah, i don't really know. they'd never done anything like that until we graduated. they only love us now that they're getting rid of us, i guess.

it was really cool, though. i just wish i'd been able to experience more of it instead of being in the bathroom so long.

there was even a free masseuse.

 

yeah it really sounds like you freaked out at first.

next time you should trip in a setting that you are more comfortable in. you will definatly have a better time.

 

yeah. that whole birthday party thing and my friend getting angry with me really didn't help.
plus i REALLY underestimated the effects of the seeds.

i still think that it was worth it overall, though.
next time i'll know to be better prepared.