even on my happiest days i still miss you. if youre trying to break my heart dont bother it has ached everyday since you gave it back to me. i swear i was never trying to hurt you im just stupid. i dont even know how to be cold i suck at it when i care about the person. everytime i am i always regret it and end up feeling even worse. i wasnt trying to hurt you i was only trying to not be hurt just like you. but it never worked. believe it or not in my head i even thought maybe it would lead you back to me but obviously i just really hurt you and im so sorry! i know you were only doing what you had to do but it was still very hard for me to watch you go. you made me crazy and then i did crazy things and now you hate me for them thats not very fair. if youre not willing to take even a little responsibilty (you were very confusing hence my emotions were very unpredictable) then i can see why you might never forgive me. BUT you should it was all very intense and i dont think it was just me??? ill never hurt you again! i love you ps. guess what day it is tomorrow? pps. theres never been a girl in my life as special to me as you <3 ppps. theres also only ONE thing in the world that would make me truley happy to unwrap :H
when you couldnt brush your hair i would have brushed it for you. i would have care for every hair the way i cherish and adore you. i love when your hair gets long cuz it means for me a little bit more you lol but with a face like yours it would be so amazingly beautiful short too.
there are so many things i wanted to explain to you and you never even gave me the chance you are crazy why did you do this to me i guess it was all a joke never in all my fantasies did i imagine you ever treating me like this i give up...goodbye.
now im gonna have to miss you for the rest of my life wtf i dont deserve this i was so nice to you but you took advantage of it i dont even know why i care lol fuck! its ironic i once said i should probably disappear for a while and down the road we could rekindle things when the time was right but you said if i left you would never talk to me again...i knew what would happen and wanted to avoid it but you just wanted what was fun for you at the time...i guess that should have been a sign eh...ya im dumb.
