Sometimes i get days where i cant leave the house I have panic attacks and crawl under this desk here and just sit it out for a few hours I guess this is more of a confession. I really hate it though, and feel a bit lame about it at the moment I know its come from an abusive relationship i was in a few years ago and sometimes feel guilty for not being able to move on all the time. I know its really unhealthy Im invited out to dinner with some strangers tonight and im getting the shakes thinking about being A-Not under the desk and B-with a load of people i may make a fool of myself with, or they might hate me or something Its not helped by the fact that i used to be the most confident person you could meet. I still get flashes of it every now and then, but its mostly like this So basically my Yin is bad days and needed to let it out Cheers
Aww.. I get social anxiety too, but not to the point where I hide under the desk.. it's just an acute unease at social events with strangers.
Not at all, not at all.. mental health problems are never ridiculous (except some of the more bizarre fetishes).
hey hun, totally doesn't sound ridiculous to me. i had one period of time where i basically didn't leave the flat at all for 6 months ... if i did go out, i would only sit in the car (not drive) and that was it. i'd shake and quiver at the thought of anyone even knowing i was in the flat, so kept all the curtains shut tight, etc. recently, i've been having a bit of a relapse. not nearly so bad, but we were out the other day, and i had to leave my hubby somewhere for a bit and i went up to a VERY SMALL shop up the road. by the time i got back to hubby (about 20 minutes later) i was bawling my eyes out and shaking uncontrollably from the anxiety and panic of being out on my own even for such a short time and to such a small familiar place. you're certainly not alone, hun. there are times when i don't even like posting messages on boards like this (not that you all aren't lovely people) just because i get so nervous about what people may or may not think of me. in fact i was telling my hubby last night, my mind gets so tedious at times, i get sick to death as any conversation i have with anyone gets replayed in my head at least a dozen times, and if it's been a particularly heated conversation it may go on for days, where i just over analyze ever word said practically, and no matter what i do, it's always there on looped playback in the back of my mind.
Yea pheonix is right YOUR NOT ALONE, I went through a time where it took me about half an hour to get out the door coz I was thinkin so hard. Everything I said came back to haunt me trying to rip me to pieces, judgement.
