Hey gay forum dudes, got a tale to spin. Basically it goes like this, bisexual dude realizes he's gay but due to a mostly straight friend base the need to test the true gayness was necessary apparently (i hate myself)... dude meets girl, goes out with girl, gets stuck in another closet (I HATE the closet) dude gets out of the closet but before he can find Mr. Anything (hopefully Mr. Right) dude catches genital warts and is waiting on the blood test drinking assloads of vodka and is very sad, depressed but still hopeful, and wondering why he went back on his decision and got stuck in the closet and killed his chances forever maybe (gay friend of mine with bugs from mistakes tells me that the Mr. Anything no matter what becomes Mr. Right when you both have the same bugs, and that when you find your buggy match you aint gonna lose him) former bi gay guy is still tied up in knots of stress. The answer to blood tests are often painful, but at least you have comfort in knowing what the hell is going down.... sorry to need editing, talked to my momma earlier and told her all that was up, and she told me she was proud of me for being responsible enough to even get blood drawn for she personally would tell the doc to fuck off, and semi-quote (is ok sweety we all get our storys sooner or later) man I just met a cute guy, managed to get his number, fuck... in all my years of hangin around the bath-houses i got my first STV from a god damn fuckin chick! I need another drink, god damn i feel dirty. got Terrapin Station on, jerry saved me from oxy addiction and got me to reconsider shooting myself when I listened to ripple. if you haven't figured it out yet I'm the former bi but now gay guy that is scourning women at the moment. tonight I have been lax, 1 martini and like 6 glasses of wine... god damn, sorry to edit again, I feel stupid, I dont blame my friends though they did make me feel a certain wierd way, but all this aint their world and I should have considered everything better damnit...
Man that sucks - i feel for you - Just have faith and keep on looking there must be someone out there right for you.
It's alright man. Obviously you've hit a rough spot but it can only get better if you want the situation to get better. I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. If you feel like you don't have anyone to talk to, feel free to PM me. Remember that everything will be alright in the end.
