so basically ive been using oxy for the past 2 years or so and my tolerance is of course high. i have taken breaks here and there but it now takes me at least 40 in the morning just to not feel sick, and about 80 to get high. The thing is when i get high i dont get that good feeling anymore. No matter how much i do i cant get euphoric. Its even been hard for me to start nodding, i have to almost focus on it and force myself to nod. is the oxy just too weak for me now or something? should i take a vacation and switch to dilaudid or something stronger, like clean heroin? i hear people say its way cheaper and pretty much the same as long as you dont shoot. and for anyone telling me to quit, believe me ive tried numerous times, its not an option right now. any suggestions?
quitting is not an option? but it is, unless you want to substitute homelessness, poverty and possible death in its place. either way, in the end, pills are pills, but i think as you become more addicted to them, the euphoria naturally wears off. now heroin is fucking euphoric. blows any single drug out of the water. it also made me think about opiates a lot more when i tried it. heroin is pretty much the same though, but the only way you'll find the best heroin, and even then it'll be stepped on unless you go to the source which will probably you have an extensive habit or are just reckless or both. also, the nod on heroin is a lot better, just the overall experience as well. but my best advice is just to quit for a looooooooong time until your tolerance goes way down and then start doing it on a monthly basis. i think the problem here is that you're just afraid of the withdrawals or dont believe in yourself. but if you want to function normally i suggest taking some suboxone for about a week, less if you could do it until the pain fades.
I'm not sure what answer you're expecting here. What do you mean "quitting isn't an option"? If you're that addicted, you will need help from others. I don't think any decent person would recommend you continuing using oxy, let alone upgrade to dilaudid or heroin. If they did that'd be wishing them h*ll and a miserable life on you, if you haven't experienced it already. I strongly recommend you take a long break, say a month or two. After that times up, you can re-evaluate how you feel--and decide to go clean longer or back to the oxy, which will undoubtedly bring euphoria again at probably 1/5th of a dose you are taking now. But I think you know the route you should be taking. Bro, after awhile these drugs just drain on you and take the soul out of you. It's like things that mattered to you don't matter anymore and all you care about is your next high. It's an awful way to live and will lead to you eventually losing everything. And there will be a point in time where you will hit rock bottom and be forced to try to quit--the sooner you do it the easier it will be. Just something to think about.
you should trip on some lsd with the mindset that you want to take a break, and i think this would help you stop a little easier.. maybe even quit permanetly because thats exactly what happened to me. i was in your same situation but i also moved no to heroine for almost a year, its great!! and much cheaper... i felt like an idiot spending so much on pills when diesel is so much cheaper/potent, but it just not a healthy thing to do. after i tripped on lsd i no longer had a desire or any opiates and ive been clean for about a year good luck.
that really sucks bro, but look at it on the bright side... this started happening to you after 2years of use. Me, a lil over two months!!! and only using once a week! I could not get high or nod even when I upped my dosage,
