So, I'm kind of new to all of this. I mean, until last year around this time, I never really thought of myself as bisexual at all. I still feel like I'm closer to heterosexual on the Kinsey scale, but it's really scary to me to have started to question my sexuality at 29, especially after having been married for 2 years at the time. So what happened last year at work: this lady started complimenting me and saying almost sexual like things to me that made me think maybe she was interested. Initially I was quite turned off and annoyed, but eventually I became intrigued. It was kind of like being in high school again. Was she flirty like this with everyone, or was she trying to feel me out? I really didn't know, and being both shy and married, it's not like I was really going to test the waters. It helped to talk about it with my husband. He was understanding and told me it was okay to have these feelings. Eventually, even though I see the lady almost every day, the whole thing faded. Of course, the whole thing was in the back of my mind every so often, but for the most part, I just grew less and less interested in her and stopped trying to flirt with her. Then, two nights ago (now this was really weird to happen, since I wasn't thinking about her at all, or so I thought), I had 3 somewhat sexual dreams about her where she was pursuing me and I was really turned on. I woke up sexually frustrated and sad, wanting this whole thing with her to be done. Anyway, I guess maybe I still have a little crush on her, and I looked her up online last night. I was really disappointed when I found her myspace page and it said she was straight. So then I felt like a loser, like her flirtations with me and pursuing me was all in my head and that she's just like that with everyone. This is really frustrating and to top it all off, I'm pregnant, and really shouldn't be worrying about this right now - I don't feel like it's healthy. Anyone else go through something similar or have any words of wisdom or advice to offer?
