If you don't deal with anger...

ily!

 

That was really good.

 

My anger dies after a while, can't be angry forever
And i dont really need to keep it in, because theres no one to tell... xD

 

I dont keep anger in. It just doesnt work for me. I will let it out. I may not get crazy and shit but I cant keep it in.

 

I am angry that I have to go to work now boooooo.

 

teach me?

 

Well I'm coming from it at an opposite direction as you. I used to really fly the fuck off the handle. Not showing anger has never been an issue for me. Controlling it and being constructive with it has been the practice for me for the last 10 years or so. I feel as if I do well with it now and even have learned to use it as one of many tools in dealing with a given situation when it is called for.
I guess my first lesson to you would be to go fly the fuck off the handle for a while then learn to wrangle it in.

 

yeah. when i get mad. i cry and withdrawl n sleep.

pretend im not mad.

but im ANGRY.

 

yeah lyns and laura both almost made me tear up.. you girls are real.


love love~!

 

The past was the past. I think we can go forward on a different level. I didn't do a very nice job expressing help or my opinion a couple of years ago. It came across like I was attacking you. That wasn't very cool on my part. I am truly sorry for that.

The problem with letting anger out on others is feeling like you can't undu what you said. Sometimes the truth sucks and needs to get out but it can get out constructively. I hate hurting others. When I do I can't rest till I seek forgiveness. It's who I am. (Therapy helps me with this too)

Can you make a list of all/who that you are angry with/about? Can you talk to each person on the list. Tell them you have to do this so you can go forward with your life. It might sound like AA 12 Step Program but whatever works I'd go with it.


I wish I had the beach near me too. We have a creek that runs threw the back of our property. There is tons of poison ivy and brush we have to clear to get to it. We are going to start that project in the fall. I want to be near water and hear the peacefulness of it.

 

I'm glad I met you and Lucky here. You've always had a special place with me. Even when I am gone for a bit I still think of you often. The both of you actually.

 

There area couple non-narcotic pain relievers. One I just started is Lyrica. Low dose but I feel pretty good with it. In fact I took that this morning and 1 Ultram 50mg (it's strong but not a narcotic...works great) and I felt pretty good most of the day. I don't say that often.

Normally I would of taken 1-2 vicodins because of my pain issues plus IB prophen. I'm trying to find other methods. It sucks but it's something I eventually have to do.

 

your head will explode

 

in me, it manifests into me being a huge lazy ass, eating like crap...etc...
tis why i have many outlets to deal with my anger.

 

I do that too. Man ti sucks because then you get more angry at yourself.

 

thats exactly what happens to me...vicious circle

i just got a bit angry because i'm not hydrated haha

 

I know no one will believe me but I don't get angry too often and if I do, it takes A LOT to make me angry, I mean a lot... I usually go be alone and think...and it subsides...

 

You too. I got really upset that one time when I thought I would never be able to get a hold of you again.

 

Sweetie, anything that is in the past I understand. Sure, I felt attacked, unrightley but someone has to be humble n an example. haha. No seriously... I always knew you were a good person and I always liked you though I was mad. Haha. I apprieciatte you apologizing to me though but you should know I already know when people are truly sorry b/c of their actions- and it was never different with you.

Maybe I SHOULD write a list of what makes me mad. I talked to my neighbor A LOT tonight about anger and feeling used. Came up with some things too... until tonight I wasn't sure why I was angry.

Wish you still live around me... I'd soooo take you on my next beach trip.

xoxo

 

i got hooked up today with four things today for my pain but i do wish there was something that WORKED that wasnt a narcotic.

btw i missed you!