okay sigh please read. my day

You are better than this, but you don't deserve some of these posts. Youa re human. Our society is so weird with addiction. If a mentally ill person has a psychotic episode do we tell them how awfult hey are?-no It's the same with addictions people. It's a mental illness.
With that being said, people with mentaly ill episodes need treatment, just like people with drug issues need formal treatment.
I know how hard it is to get off benzos. God I know. But, subsituting one drug for an even worse one is a symptom of full-blown addiction to any mind altering substance you can get your hands on.
Please get help.
HUGS

 

Aww...i'm sorry you had a bad day and disappointed you did what you did. But tomorrow is another day after all....you can beat your disease

 

thank you lynsey n amanda. i think i saw the light today though it sucks.

im not doing heroin again.

im hurt by my friends because i always said they would do what they did.

 

It's alright you'll find new friends who love you sober or high.

 

im just crying and i havent cried in months. i also got my period for the first time in two months today. my head hurts.

im upset. how can i help them when they fuck me over?

im so upset.

 

Easy don't help their asses. They've more than proven they don't deserve it.

 

I'm not coming back to this thread, so don't even bother replying to my post, but, are you even trying? I mean really?

You need to stop blaming other people/outside influences for YOUR addictions. And I really believe you're addicted no matter what you say. You're moving up the ladder. Snorting it, shooting it, soon enough it will become selling your possessions for it (including your body) UNLESS YOU STOP NOW.

I find it sad how you go from lecturing the people in your car from doing it to doing it yourself.

What kind of example are you setting for your friends?

If you're happy with the life you're living, so be it, but I don't think you'll be happy with it much longer if you keep on down the path you're on.

Really, get help.

I want you to be better. I do.

And so does everyone else here...even if they're showing it in different ways.

Please.

 

btw i re-read that and i wanna say. you a right about a lot and i wont do it again. i always said i wanted to do it once and SOMETHING looks out for me... and the fact that two days later they gave me fake shit that made me shit... well, it DOES seem like a blessing. I meditated on it. I'm glad it happened. I am blessed. Truly.

In that way... ya know? Anywayyysss....

I didn't mean they beat someone up for money/drugs though. I meant they took his money and said they'd BRB and never showed up.... hence, the "beat"---- that's how you say riped a person off round here...just wanted to clarify.

hey ill be alright i kinda DID see the light before it was too late.

not kinda... i did and i promise you ALL. it might not be EASY. ill want it and ill miss my "friends" BUTTTTTTTT...
it is NOT too late. you were right. i stopped at the point before the point of no reason. word.

and i couldnt have done it without the help from you all.

 

read my post after this one. or before.

and read my other thread ill try to link it.

and i know it was ironic that i was telling them not to do it and upset at them and worried and then shot up that night. i said it somewhere. i WAS upset they brought a neddle around though...for ALLLL of us.... I mean, two days before that we all three talked about how we WONT shoot up though we all wanted to.


So yeah. I WAS mad a needle was brought to my car n apt.

anyways im not doing it again. i said ir over n over n i mean it. its not too late so please chill.

 

Isn't it ironic how we all know shooting up is bad but yet some chose that path anyway? It's one hell of a road, a wasteful one. It will rob you of your life, family, spouses, partner, friend, home, wallet, anything and everything that ever meant anything.

Ultimately People, Places, & Things need to change if that cycle is going to be broken. It's too easy to give into it. I speak from my own experience with an addiction of my own. (not H)

Lucky..I know you said you won't do it again. No one wants to see you go down that path. You've had a challenging road as it is. This is a bad soup to your mix.

Hugs My Friend. XOXO