Here is a bugged out story. My brother..dieing?

I started having dreams after my brother moved to Manhatten to work for a production company.... night terrors almost that he died in a car accident.

I talked to my mom yesterday when she called me back after I was locked out and I needed a key...which I already got my neighbor to take me to get..anyways she was almost crying it seemed when she called me back... and was like "your brother was in a bad car accident"- I was like "OMG! is he okay?!!" those dreams HAUNTED me. vivid and scary.

So she tells me yeah but his car was totalled and he was in the hospital for a week and he's okay now but wtf?


my mind was blown.

i miss my brother too. i have since we were close (close!) as kids.

 

Is no one awake?

Is that weird or do you think I'm a liar? Haha.

 

i dont doubt it ive have some premonition type dreams myself i swear to god almighty i once dreamed that i was going to trip on acid on halloween of 06 and i would be sitting under a willow tree and i swear to god it just happend and i had forgotten the dream until that exact moment hit me it was like the most insane deja vu ive ever experienced. altho my story is a little less relevant maybe you should get in touch with your brother for all you know your dream was a sign but you still got time

 

I lost a lot of contact with him. We were CLOSE as kids then my mom (my dad was gone) became a born again christian which is cool... whatever does it for you.. but then she became the intolerant kind, kicked me out for smoking pot. blah blah. she brain washed both me n my bro. abotu my dad then she did the same or tried to turn my bro against me...called me a bitch, slapped me and said i WAS my dad in spirit. I still love her though. We get along okay now but living with her...intolerance.


when my brother n i were kids we were CLOSE. i mean he was my best friend and I think it has bugged me for a while that we are no longer close but I think I STILL obviously know him so well and he HAS grown up. His brain has been unwashed quite a bit.

Those dreams and that phone call almost broke me to tears.

and cool on you for understanding.

 

I had a dream about my gran dying 10 years ago the night my great aunt died (her sister).

 

Well there's my answer

 

Do you have anything original to say?

 

oh touche.


TOUCHE!

bang bang.

wtf.

You asked if I always type what I think and the popcorn smilie which is ugly then edited.

How weak.
Stand yer ground if you wanna argue with the master, homie.

 

Is that a towel I just saw flying across the room?

 

that sucks about your mom, all you can really do is put out as m uch luv as u can and hope for something back. im kind of having the same problems with my family im about one foot out the door with nowhere to go because i walked out on my job and havent got one yet so i said i would leave but they have 2500$ of my money and they wont give it to me because they think im a drug addict because my grandma found a gram of coke in my drawer abt a year ago and im honest with them abt my pot smoking. i dont think theyll actually kick me out as long as i stay in school tho but they are so hard to deal with sometimes

 

Thanks. I mean I could tell mad stories but this isn't my pity party. I'm older now n grew from it and an important!! thing to remember or learn and then remember is that parents are human. I understand my mom because I'm not perfect either. She's different from me and I was just telling my neighbor yesterday.... you pick your friends, right? Your family.... ehhhh it's a lesson in TOLERANCE and loving even if you don't like and approve. If you pass THAT test, you will be good on life. that's my opinion but I'm always right.

So anyways I'm not mad at my mom for what she did to me but I am a bit upset that she tried to turn my brother against me, ya know? That was wrong and I would never do that if I ever had children.


Sigh.

Anyways that sucks they found that. I'm not really sure what to say. Just be more careful, ya know? Hide shit before you get too fucked up to remember.

what are you going to school for?

 

i really have no clue what im going to school for ive taken a full semester and failed or dropped every class so except the summer session english course i just took but now i have to pay for school so i need to get a job my family thinks that because i havent found one yet that im just trying to freeload which is 100% not true but i cant be completely mad at them theyve helped me alot and i understand their pov somewat.

how exactly has she tried to turn ur bro against you i couldnt imagine how that feels its good that your brother is smarter than that holding grudges is senseless especially to the ones you love

 

i took three years of psychology. i still have a passion for it but i learned the game and it made me sick. i wont ever throw out my morals. more then then two professors (that means three, heh.) told me that it's all about labels and medication and it's like that cause of regulations n stuffs .... idk, i started feeling controlled n when that happens, i tend to turn away if i dont run like hell.
I always wanted to write... you know and make a small amount of money for it to but unless you play yer cards right it's the same bs.


i think i AM gonna go back to school for for either fitness or nutrition. Nutrition because the toxicity of the drugs they want you to give to NOT SICK!! ppl.- well they don't work and it annoys me... but nutrition.. what you put in (and hence the fitness as well).... it works.

So my heart is in the same place but I believe in nature not toxicity.
Make sense?

And that's cool you don't know.

I'd go to school for so much if I could afford it. I have many interests.

What are your passions?

 

my mom and my dad are polar opposites. explaing it is difficult because ive never understood it myself. they divorced when i was eight and when my girlfriends would spend the night, we'd lay up all night giggling, talking... and my bedroom was the only one that locked. dude, id wake up and my mom would be sleeping or hoping she could on the floor. the reason why....?... well she said my dad wouldnt hit her if she was with the kids and she was scared.


I believe it. He drank n did meth.

Now here is the thing. I was an ANGEL. My mom got MAD strict after their divorce- denied my dad seeing me n my brother cause he um drank.

She wouldnt tolerate shit. Talk about STRICT... the second time I smoked a CIGARTTE she smelled it and made me take my coat and my jeans off outside.

My brother is five years younger then me and was my best friend growing up and my mom well.she brainwashed him first about my dad. he's evil he's blah blah.. then she told my brother I was like him.

it hurt.

a lot

but i love her. she's just a human, dig?

it was a hard lesson to learn.

 

I'm confused. Did your brother get into a car accident? I haven't finished my first cup of coffee yet. I'm still wiping the poison ivy off my eye lids. (AHHH!)

Shit..If he did I hope he's okay.

I think it's normal for some seperation from siblings for a bit. (to a certain degree). My brother and I were friends but we used to fight like mad. He tried to kill me once, maybe twice. We don't talk much but when we do we laugh together. I think we laugh mostly at what are children are doing/saying and compare it to when we were kids. It's funny...circle of life.

 

Yeah. My brother turned into a bit of an asshole then from that to a pretty decent, amazing person actually.


and yeah he was in a BAD accident. but he'll be okay.