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Seeking No One.

My best friend/on again/off again boyfriend of the last year and a half broke up with me last night.

Off again forever.

I cried all night and woke up this morning and for the first few blissful seconds I was completely unaware that anything had happened until I felt that heavy weight on my chest again and my stomach flipped, leaving me to go blow chunks in the bathroom.

It was an amicable breakup, but one I didn't want.

It's my fault and I don't want to say why. I already keep dwelling on it and wishing I could change things.

But I can't.

I just needed to get this off my chest before I go to work at 5:30 today. I have 5 1/2 hours to get my shit together before I go.

God.

Work is gonna suck.

 

the weight will lift soon....

take care of yourself.... :grouphug:

 

Thanks.

 

The heart is the only broken instrument that works.
Hope you can cheer up soon Rachel.

 

Thanks, John.

 

I'm sorry.

Try not to look for someone to blame. (Yourself)

Things don't always work out. It didn't for you.

Things'll get better soon. Promise.

Feel better friend.

 

give it time, only thing that will work

sometimes beauty can be found in sadness, you know?

 

Gary stop trying to quote classic 80's ballads. You trying to make her feel worse?

 

was that a line from Every Rose Has It's Thorn or something?

 

Thanks you guys.

It's good to know that not everybody in the world is so self involved that they can take time out of their lives to type a few words of solace to someone they barely even know.

Some people in real life can't even do that.

But I think I'll be okay in time.

I have a lot of work ahead of me to get where I need to go in life, so that should keep me busy...

Or so I keep telling myself.

 

Wise.

 

I think so.

I think maybe I'm teasing you for being old because maybe I'm jealous that you're better looking than I.

But why? We should be friend Monster.

You rock. :biggrin:

 

A lot of time I never end up finding what makes me happy till I give up looking for it.

You will be okay. Feel better Rachel.

 

dude that is exactly it

sometimes trying to hard at whatever it may be can be negative, whether it be a career, a painting, or a relationship

and yea, I realize I am an oldster now

 

So true.

I know we all get sad when things end, but being alone can help us with the static in our heads. It just takes time and there's really nothing anyone can say to make you feel better, but you will *hugs*

 

All of us here are fond of you.

.

 

Thank you, Shaggie.

Because of you, every time I look in the mirror I see Peppermint Pattie.

 

Ouch!

It really sucks ending relationships, even if we know it is for the best.

Keep yourself busy.

Wish you happy new beginnings.