Very weird experience with marijuana...

To start off, im a daily bud smoker, and i have been meditating on and off for a few months. Usually about 20 min in the morning and 20 at night.

A couple weeks ago, early on in the day i had meditated for about 25 min and i remember it was a very good meditation session, like I couldve sat there for hours if i wanted. i remember my mind felt very clear and i was very relaxed and focused on my breath. later that evening, i smoked a good amount of herb with my friend. it was all going good, til I started thinking of negative things and all the hate in the world.

Then I began to feel fear spreading through my body and it felt like there was a terrible cloud hanging above me. No matter how I tried, I couldnt relax using breath techniques or anything else. I felt a strange little ball of energy between my index finger and thumb. i dont know if it has to do with how i make a circle with those two fingers when i meditate. actually i dont even know why i do that but it just feels natural to me when i meditate.

An hour or so had passed and i still felt the most terrible i have, maybe in my entire life. i just wanted the whole thing to end. i went up to my room where i usually meditate and sat on my coushin. sp? i was slouching and feeling very shitty and i felt so isolated that i started to pray to god. (im not religious at all, my mom is buddhist and my dad doesnt believe in religion.) when i started to pray, i felt the energies in my hands pulling my body straight up, and my back straightened completely out and my hands eventually were reaching for the sky.

i tried to pull my body up to the level that my hands were at, and i ended up in the position of jesus when he was crucified. laugh if u want, but keep in mind that i have NEVER believed in jesus and i have always had lots of doubt whether this person even existed. once i got in this position, the feeling of intense fear was replaced with incredible bliss and relief. i felt so close to "god" and i felt deep gratitude.

that was definitely the strangest and most/only religious day of my life. im 99% sure the meditation is what triggered it, with the pot of course.

Anyway, if you're still with me, thanks. does anyone have any clue what this was? because it also happened tonight in the movies, but I could control it better. it happens when i have a good meditation session and smoke a lot later that day.

 

Well golly.

You're attacking the brain on two fronts here. You're trying to discipline it through meditation and at the same time feed it chemicals that alter perception. Plus, at 18, you have the raging hormone thing going on.

If you were the brain, what would you do?

Too much stimulation and not enough contemplation.

Leave pot out of meditation. Save it for after.


x

 

That is a wild experience. I'm not sure why it happened, but like xexon said, it probably had something to do with combing weed and meditation. I know for me, weed sometimes makes me paranoid, or puts me in a weird mindset...