Haha, yeah those bikers turned up right on time. And thats the magic of noticing these little nuances in our lives, ripples on the surface telling of things unseen. These reflections of the energies at work in our lives. Your stone windy, ... with your little creatures especially for you. ... it's funny it's just SO like that. I've often said that one may as well interpret ones waking life just as they do their dreams because it can tell just as mutch, it just nobody seems to step back and look i guess. ...and just once, maybe twice recently for a few moments, i've realised that literally everything i do and that happens in my life says something, ..has meaning and is symbolic. Your little stone reminds me of a crystal i found once. I'd read in a mike harner book about going out and finding a rock, and this rock would tell you something by it's feel, shape and marks ect. So my mother and i headed out to some cairns in wales one day, ... this place was full of rocks! ... supposedly where stonehenges' bluestones came from. A great atmosphere though, it rained and there was this thick spooky mist and i crammed myself into a tiny hole in a big rock like a baby, nearly falling asleep ... sheltering from the rain. So out of billions of rocks i chose one ...always in these cases i find it's best to go with the thing you first thought of ... the rock wasn't remarkable but what was remarkable was what i found underneath ... both together side by side was a pellet of a bird of prey of some kind along with a marble sized, very clear and rain polished quarts crystal. I always carried that crystal in my hip pocked for a year or two but eventually it just kinda vanished somewhere I have a knack for finding things under stones i think. When i was about 12 i was at a local hippie/medieval fair thing, ..getting unhealthily drunk for the first time on rough cider with a friend. Anyway i saw this rock and it seemed 'as if someone had hidden something underneath it' ...y'know? So i looked underneath and found a bag of heroin, or, at the time 'drugs' ... i handed it to a policeman at the gate. Looking back if it wasn't for the fact there were other kids about i'd have rather left it where it was. Also i've found bits of lost hash for friends in pretty impossible places from time to time. I should be a sniffer dog
Yeah liquidlight, I always look to nature and my dreams for my answers. If I am really watchful I can sometimes see what is coming at me. As my daughter and I were walking along the street one day, a group of maybe 5 crows with great commotion flew out of a nearby tree pecking at and dive-bombing one of their own. I'd never seen crows go after one of their own before. I told my daughter if I wasn't mistaken, one of us was going to have a problem with a group of people. (LOL She hates it when I do this. She says it gives her the creeps). Sure enough within 2 weeks one of us had a lengthy problem with a group of people. And wow again...your crystal, the way you found it is so right on!!! A wonderful gift! To actually go to the place where they got the bluestones for Stonehenge. Magical! I also like Michael Harner. I have his book The Way of the Shaman and also a few books by Sandra Ingerman who was taught by Michael. I am especially interested in what they say about Soul Retrieval. Interesting. If I can ever get my sh*t together I wouldn't mind doing the Soul Retrieval training.
Hey tikoo...The day I read your red hat post, it was red hat day where I live. A group of elderly ladies dress up in great big wonderful red hats and purple dresses. They wear all sorts of amazing pieces of jewelry and bangles. They have lunch and shop and visit and brighten everybodies day. Like a little parade......maybe that day you were talking about IS coming.....
Hehe, i'm enjoying this red hat thing. Yeah i've read some mike harner and sandra ingerman ... all very interesting, especially about soul retrieval. My favourite read is a little book called 'shamanic voices' ... a collection of writings from all over the world by different shamans talking about their initiations and practice, i particularly liked reading about the Australian aboriginal guys and an ancient African guy called 'Old Xau' ... he's off his rocker but quite sane i guess ... talks about 'going inside' people to heal them or bring them back to life, also about gods HUGE penis (like a monster), and how he tried to trick god into giving back someones baby ...all absolutely hilarious! The kinda guy i'd like to meet for sure. I gave up journeying several years ago because despite an apparent aptidude and potential for it, i felt i didn't really understand it, however i've learned more about dreaming since and feel like i'm coming some way to understanding how my soul speaks to me. This whole shamanic thing as far as spiritual practices go is very earthy, it includes the body and the earth and life ... all things i have issues with! So i feel i'd like to come back to journeying sometime but there's a learning curve and those issues to REALLY deal with. I'm feeling on a more relaxed earthy vibe recently though, feeling comfortable in my body, feeling easy around people, feeling secure in my totally non-secure lifestyle and even feel slightly enthusiastic sometimes! hehe. I've been having some odd experiences recently too, as in attracting people who seem to think i'm amazing, so i've got all sorts of people ... being wierd to me! All of a sudden guys think i'm cool, girls wan't to date me and mums 'want to take me home with them.' LOL ... and i'm 39!
Hey liquid...do you have the author or ISBN # for Shamanic Voices? Sounds like something I might want to read. I know what you mean about journeying. I had and sometimes still have a problem interpreting. Yeah, the whole shamanic thing also interests me. I found out not so long ago that I have some Algonkian Indian in my family and I am looking forward to exploring that side spiritually as I have done with the Celtic side of my family hahaha...had to laugh at the last part of your last post...things are sure lookin' up for you. I kinda sensed you had some good stuff coming your way with that last dream you had. ENJOY!!!!!
This is the one; http://www.amazon.com/Shamanic-Voices-Survey-Visionary-Narratives/dp/0140193480. I'm not sure about my genetic heritage. I'm a white british guy and trace my family back 400 years here. People sometimes think i'm Italian because of my dark hair and slightly darker skin than most and i'd agree there's probably a mediterrainian influence way back somewhere but i know not where. The Roman world covered most of western europe so i think it would hardly be surprising, but then the ancient, pre belgian and roman britons were known to have dark hair also. So who knows. Genetically some white people are more black than white and visa versa (< latin!) because skin colour is only a small part of our genetics. If you watch the programs on tv it's surprising what a mixture people are ...and that native american genes show up often worldwide.
Well i need sexual healing!! ... and i believe you, i was kinda thinking along those lines ... needed some confirmation, someone elses view. ... so thanks windy ... but heck, this blue rabbit seems to be a major piece of a long term puzzle for me and i'm having revelations about it. It's all good though ... very good! I could use your advise though windy ... i'll PM you tomorrow (i need to sleep now)because it concerns a certain young woman i was telling you about. BTW ... although kinder egg divinations are fun, i never took them seriously until now .. mind boggling!
Well, that's funny 'cause I like kinder eggs myself. Have a whole bag of the little prizes that I saved. Never thought of divining with them though...Cool
Ah well, i wrote you a really big PM windy but had to scrap it cause' it was too big to post (1500 words!!) and i couldn't save it. It was good for me to write it though. The blue rabbit ... well i bought that kinder egg about 5 minutes before bumping into Ella ... the charming 19 yr old i was mentioning. She was with her mother and two sisters (shes the eldest) and it was her 19th birthday. I used to live with them all until two years ago and i hadn't seen them since. They invited me for supper one night and it was great to see them all. They had just moved from a 'No.#9' to another 'No.#9', and i and Jackie their mother talked briefly about how we felt a connection with the number 9 also. As i walked away i realised i may have had something on me to give Ella as a token birthday gift, and all i had was the blue rabbit from the kinder egg. Thats really when i started thinking it may mean something. Now i need to explain a few things ...something to do with my life. A fantastic woman who years ago broke my heart and set me on an inward path to find myself ...to find her. She was also the eldest of three sisters, and since then the 'triple goddess' has been in my dreams. In one dream i was shown a divination card, like an angel card but called 'brother and sister' cards.... on it was written the name 'Brighid' (British celtic triple goddess) and the numbers 9 and 19. I've since discovered that 19 is sacred to Brighid. I've also dreamed of the great mother goddess also, the cow goddess. So strangely, that evening, after 2 years not seeing Jackie and the three girls, it's Ellas 19th birthday and I and jackie talk about the no. 9. ... for me it's a bit like a visit .. in the flesh, from not just the triple goddess ... the three sisters, but the their mother also. I realised really how mutch i'd missed them all and being asked over for supper oddly felt like i'd been asked for a date. Such a normal event turns into something so meaningful eh? So ... looking at it this way, maybe the blue rabbit is a gift 'from' them? The triple goddess does indeed steer my fate and sexual healing IS on the cards right now. But what about my thoughts of giving the blue rabbit to Ella? Heck thats serious! There's something about her, like myself, which says she doesn't love herself enough and i've been recognising that who she is as the eldest of three and the reflection she offers me, is a reflection of myself ... an unloved part of me, denied and neglected and unconciously abused ... my body and my sexuality. . In fact thinking about it i bet she thinks shes ugly, ... doesn't like her body. Crazy considering she's one of the most beautiful things i know of. I've been pretty infatuated with her recently anyway with her suddenly being an adult proper and i can be more open with her, and she looks at me and talks to me like she always did.... like she knows me, like we were always friends. I think she probably gets a feeling of recognition with me, like something familiar, because that's what i get from her. She feels like a soulmate and it's got something to do with the three sister thing. I'm just recently remembering that i am also the youngest of three brothers and that this may be significant also in why i'm attracted to these women and they're attracted to me? It's all mind boggling anway and my mind is a bit all over the place right now thinking about her.
I've been puzzling over this 9 and 19 stuff alot this year ad i've talked about it on the boards. That dream must have been ... mmm, about 9 years ago (could be wrong) when i lived at a no.9 address. I've lived at many no.9 addresses and i've wondered about it for a long time ... when i was a kid, the 9x table was my favourite, and easiest for me because i loved the pattern it took ... 63, 72, 81 ect, the first and second places ascending and descending like opposites. When i was 27 i 'met the light' .. in my death experience, and i now equate Brighid with that light and 9, being commonly associated with 'completion', perhaps represents that state of oneness in the light .. something constant. I learnt this year that 9 and 19 are connected with the 'celtic great year' .. a 19 year cycle involving the moon and the horizon... something like that, but which represents a complete cycle of nature. I also learnt this year that 19 is sacred the the goddess Brighid. ... i won't go into that but it's about Brighid 'coming into the world' every 19 years, ... to sort things out i guess? So this 19 is a new one on me and i can't figure out 'why 19?' still but i'm feeling that if 9 is about something constant ... like, the mother, then 19 is about change and cycles, perhaps also represented by the triple goddess in her role as fate. So i'm begining to see how the triple goddesses are aspects of the mother ... daughters of the mother, born of her so to speak, and how maybe 9 and 19 are a whole representing the spiritual and the worldly, eternal and temporal, unconditional and conditional. stillness and movement, unconditional love, and the fickle kind. This year i feel i've come 'full circle', to when i was 25, before any of this spiritual nonsense started, before i met that girl, before i broke down, before i found myself. Now this is happening i realise just how mutch i was being myself and how open and egoless i was back then, ..sure i had ego but it was paper thin. I had fear but did it anyway, playing music in bands and getting on with everyone. Really out there i now realise and really shining, i'd forgotten who i was yet was being it anyway to some degree. ...and in my death even it was like "Oh well this who i was all along! Fuck i never realised!" So i feel, 13 years on like i've forgotten all that ... like it's not playing on my memory. I was lucky back then that i had no real concept of god or knew anything about spirituality so my awakening wasn't hampered by dogma ... it was just about being real, stopping playing games and LIVING. So i now, unfortunately have lots of knowledge and 'ideas' about spirituality but nonetheless feel back in a place where i feel fairly 'unhampered' and my old self again, after years of 'searching', willing to have some faith in myself again. So i feel i've come in a circle and somehow that old dream has a relevance for me THIS year, and my meeting with Jackie and the girls being a part of that overall message. This year something is happening, and if i'm getting it right, it's as if Brighid is in control, doing her 19th yearly vigil herself. My last dream of the triple goddess was back in November .. three teenage girls (triplets but i didn't recognise the face from anyone i know) ... i talked alot and they listened. They've got a plan and i'm jus feeling blindfolded really trying to go along with it!
. hi , i've been awhile in the woods . seems i actually do see a blue rabbit in the medicine cards . it's one of several colored rabbit heads each on a stick and each has two little hands . they are hop-bobbing about in a great green and blue ocean motion of Life peering about this way and that . . .
Hey i hope you're well tikoo I've been in the woods myself a bit recently, ..too mutch thinking, not enough being. I've found a bit of space now though. Those rabbits suggest to me puppets and roleplaying, variety and drama ... the characters and mirrors we become for eachother and the mythical scripts and stories that live through us. All born out of the one blue sea.
