Hello, newcomer to these forums. I just have a quick little story and question. I tripped acid, and smoked a lot of pot awhile back and since that particular trip I've constantly had this hanging paranoia about my friends. It's not really that I don't trust them, because I still let them borrow my things and such, but it's more like I feel like they're using me or they're out to get me somehow. I never really felt like this beforehand, so I'm wondering if maybe there's anyway to snap myself out of this constant paranoia or just simply ignore it. I'm almost sure no one is trying to "use" me or are "out to get me" cause I've asked them and they just tell me not to worry about it, that I'm thinking too much. Anyway I can ignore it before it develops into a more serious paranoia?
i think it would help to know if you have any specific reasons for being suspicious, or if all of this is simply a product of your mind.
I'm not entirely sure. Sometimes my brother or other friends, for example, will say things that just get my head running in a completely paranoid direction. He'll say shit like that he thinks he believes mind control is real or something else that's just odd, but still something that could be used against me and I'll think he's using it against me in some way. The same goes for other people. It's not always as strange as mind control, but there's always some sort-of trigger.
it has a lot to do with your anti-terror field..(borrowed from neon genesis) it's the idea that we have a conscious boundary of what we allow to come into our minds, and where we define our 'self' to be (or at least the personal space that we must have recognized). If you reduce it, which happens when confidence is shattered, the energy within you becomes compressed and also you leave parts of your mind void of awareness. Other people's awareness will occupy this space...it's a natural diffusion process of consciousness. This has some really annoying consequences, mostly that people who enter your mind are thinking with your mind and while in the moment have the awareness of what is happening...when they retreat the memory of that moment is left with you. Another issue, people who enter your mind will logically be most apt at working with what they are familar with...this has a tendency to be fears. Admittedly it was your action of retreating (mentally speaking) that got them into your mind in the first place...for some this is hard to respect, and being they won't remember it well they will have less inhibition to having fun at your expense
that happened to me after a month on mushrooms and three months of straight weed i think thinking about paranoid thoughts like that whould make you more paranoid thats why it keeps kicking in probably thoughts like "am i getting paranoid im not paranoid i thought someone with an ilness like this aint supposed to know " or some beggining like that
