That's the story. I don't remember where I was for years of my life. I can't recall where I was at Christmas 3 years ago. Or the following 6 months. I remember fractured pieces from this time, but it's really pretty bad. Almost nothing before I was twenty. I was recently asked about it... on an interview I would have otherwise been completely prepared for, and I realized I hadn't even thought about it. You know, I hadn't even realized this was the kinda thing I should know. This happened yesterday. This interview. And my epiphany that I can't place large pieces of my life. I'm going to a mental health clinic soon. I need some counseling I think. It's kinda frightening how dead I was. I still am sometimes. I was thoughtless... for years. I didn't have thoughts. No internal dialogue. I'm kinda scared after that I'm not doing as well as I had thought I was.
well... I dont know where I was christmas 3 years ago, or the following 6 months either. I thin that is only because I remember things in the context of events, rather than time, if that makes any sense. Kinda hard to explain. I dont think anything is wrong with me, that is just how I function.
ok well I'm assuming 23 is your real age. can you really not remember ANYTHING before 20? or are you just saying you dont remember a specific time line or something. I'm 19. If I try to put myself 3 years back to 16 and then try to remember things, I can't really. It isn't like it's nonexistant, or that nothing happened to me, I just dont have a full recollection of those years. I could probably come up with a few specific events, but by themselves I wouldn't be sure when they happened. The way I've always remembered the past in a linear sense is by comparing events to a backdrop of other events. School and specific grades I was in serves nicely for this. Or is this not sounding similar to you at all?
i know nothing about you lode other than the lil glimpses i have seen on the forums and i must say even that isnt much. I do know however that i have very large gaps in my growing up years. I have chosen for whatever reason to completely obliterate them from my mind. I can say i had a pretty rough up bringing and some pretty harsh formulative years and i know that is the reason i have blocked them. I Have memories from when a child should not have memories but ones that i should probably remember i have no recollection other than tiny bits n pieces. I am ok with it although it is kind of odd to have to explain. I do not however find my childhood relevant to any sort of job i would be applying for now. Is that stuff you dont recall truly important for a job you seek now? Is it relevant to what type of worker you are or have been and is it any of there damned business what went on in your childhood.? Do you really feel you need counseling now because of this incident at the interview yesterday or do they simply have your mind in such a tizzy over it that you are waivering in your belief that you are doing well as a result of this? If it is the latter then i wouldnt bother with it especially if you have indeed made strides for the better in the recent past .
Yeah. 23. And the interview went alright. Not great, but I'm not really worried about that at all now. I just found it stunning that when asked about my past... I can't recall. Like it had been the kind of thing I had never even thought about. The interview wasn't important at all, just that revelation. The fact is, if I really am blocking out so much of my life, I'm really not doing as well as i had thought.
i see no reason to recall parts of my life that were a complete horrible time period, . I feel they are laid to rest and maybe that isnt such a bad thing. Why hold on to pieces n parts that brought me so much pain to begin with?
my boyfriend is like that. he has terrible memory. he only remembers a few random parts of his younger life. hes still a happy guy. im sure youll be fine
I dunno. I need to do something different. Seriously. What your doing may work for you Dill. But what I'm doing now isn't really working for me. I just feel like I'm on autopilot to a unsafe degree. I'll wake up Monday and It will be Thursday. I just need to try something new.
Yeah, I do have panic attacks. I'm usually pretty zen with most problems, but sometimes something minor will cause me to be unable to breathe almost.
to each there own,, wasnt meaning to tell you what to do ,, just more of aif this interview was what caused it type of thing then dont let it get to you if you were doing ok , you know yourself better than anyone else about whats going on in your mind
Yeah I know. No harshness. And like I say, it wasn't anything about the interview. It's just been so long since I've been asked about my past. Usually I just say something brief and change the subject. But realizing I couldn't recall it was kinda an epiphany.
ok. I've get them too, and I've found when you analyze things and scrutinize them to no end, you end up making it worse than it is, you know what I mean? It's part of the deal with anxiety. but yeah, like dilligaf said, only you know yourself, good luck though man.
I'm only 16 and I can't remember more than 5 days of what I did last summer. It's not a big deal, you probably dont remember any less than most people.
Agreed It seems like you have a positive attitude and seem to know what you want more than many You could just go with it. Whatever it was didn't seem to break you.
i don't remember most of my childhood, but i also don't try to. what's more of a problem for me is when i don't remember recent things. for example, i've gone to classl everyday at the same time for months. one day i woke up and had no idea what time i was supposed to be there. i feel like i have brain damage or something.
