I called a shelter today.

He stopped hitting for a while. Yet he wouldn't go to counseling. And around 7 am today... I tried to go to bed n got hit on the head. It STILL hurts. So I got the phonebook n found a shelter... I called. I even told the lady I talked to... that I got him OUTTA legal jail problems in court cause I thought he changed. She said I just made him think it's OKAY to do that... I had an appt. at 3 pm today to talk to a counselor there but I didn't go. But I still think it's a step for me. Just that I talked about it.


just whatever tho. im sooo glad he's at work.

 

I WANT to cop sooo bad right now and i have about ten mins. to leave... new hook up, apologies, etc... and no money needed from me. yet I dont WANT to do dope. I just want to cause I can't deal with my life anymore. I know I'll be hella pissed I missed the pawn shop closing at 4:30 but I think I shouldnt do it.. but I wanna soooo bad.

 

Don't you feel sort of uneasy about airing your personal business over public forums like this? Especially when it's usually met with venomous remarks from people?

 

call her back and reschedule the appt trish and then dont miss it. K?

 

What happened to your month away.

 

I don't even know what to do. Honestly. I'm so confused n hurt.. like deeply emotionally. I told him I was leaving that I don't love him... and it started again. I don't wanna live in a shelter though but wtf am i supposed to do? for real. i feel so hurt emotionally.

 

maybe im tryin not to cop to deal with issues and btw, you asked in a thread why skip didnt remove my priveledges.. he did n it was fair. word on skip.

i am not a super mod now but thankfully he understood i was going thru shit and im not BANNED. skip is actually VERY fair.

anyways im taking a break .. i didnt WANT to post here but my life is drama right now so I needed to vent. Peace.

 

Yea, you really need to go to that appointment. And you need to get away from that bastard, as soon as possible.

 

Take a break away from Hip and actually work on your problems, not send them all over the web

 

im scared though. really really scared.

i KNOW i need to rise up n get away. he's getting WORSE.

he used to apologize when he hit me. now he'll do it and then deny it ten mins later. it's insane. i cant deal with it. at all.

 

Your average bullet is very cheap and the bullet knows not whos blood and bone its going through it only knows its doing what it was meant to do.

 

maybe ill call them back n say ill come in again. they said it's all confidential n i would just be talking to a counselor there... fuck.

 

Your still listed as a Moderator, and you shouldn't be IMHO. If I attacked you the way that you attacked cate I would be banned. Same rules should go for you. You've had what...5 threads locked over the past two days? This is getting really out of hand.

 

the reason i called the shelter is SOMEONE is gonna get killed if I'm not away from him. I could easily kill him too.

its bullshit.

 

cate attacked me first every time. i cant ban people. i can just delete threads n stuff. i think its fair honestly.

 

maybe skip saw i was attacked first every time n was fair n balanced for real. maybe he also apprieciatted how i apologized n zoomie, who it started with pm'd him sticking up for me.

like i said, it's not like he let me off with nothing. he did what he felt was right n it's his site so respect it. i do.

 

i can understand the frustration you have, and if you want, bring it up to skip himself. no need to keep harping on it anymore in public. this is the end of that.

 

yeah. another distraction. skip did what i felt was RIGHT. i would have been upset if i wasnt "punished" but skip prolly did his research n saw i was pushed. let it go. and yeah listen to fitz.. take it up with SKIP if you have a problem with it.

 

Yea, there are enought dead horses laying around here as it is. And I'm not taking anyone's side, per se, but Trish, I really do want to see you get better. I'm scared for you, and I know several people here are, despite all the drama of previous days.

 

Since ive not been on here much recently, you called a shelter which is one step away from the po po but yet your going to get some dope??

If thats the case its a fucked up deal from the start.....hes a beater and your a junkie?? So what kind of quality of life do you expect?