Attraction

I'll admit i don't particularly enjoy copying pages and pages from books, especially when i'm fairly dyslexic and make errors every other word. - took me an hour and a half to copy all that!
I'll also admit that i want everyone to go out and get the book and devour it completely ... just reading it is raising my awareness, let alone doing some of the simple techniques he suggests to take ones awareness away from pointless repetetive thought.... mainly in constantly bringing your awareness back to the present moment when you find yourself in thought. Feel, breath, look around you and listen, focus some awareness on your inner body... anything but thinking too mutch.
It's inexpensive in paperback and very probably in your nearest hippy bookstore

 

which would be mail order for me. I don't have a 'local' hippy anything...lol. But I've noted the names, and will be trying to pick them up.

 

I thought Texas was full of hippys?

 

yeah, around the big cities. I live 60 miles from anywhere, and I think I'm the only hippy within about 40 miles of me (that I know of)

 

I just found this, kinda cool, kinda funny ...and kinda relevant to the thread:
http://www.hipforums.com/modules/Journal/viewentry.php?journalid=656

 

Lye is sodium hydroxide, an alkali like baking soda, sodium bicarbonate, only much stronger. As noted in the movie, lye is used to make soap, and a by-product of soap-making is glycerine...yeah, you should watch the movie sometime - I don't want to give away any more, or I'll spoil some of the surprises. The movie is based on a novel by Chuck Palahniuk, who is imho the greatest literary genius since Kurt Vonnegut.

As I like to say, pain is an illusion - a very painful illusion.

I have to say, your Eckhart quotes are intriguing...I still haven't bought that book, but maybe...

 

on the nature of illusion and pain, I heard this quote from a cop once 'getting shot isn't what kills. It's the illusion that getting shot kills that would be what kills most people. I've seen people who believed that a bullet couldn't stop them, and they were right. Those are the people you have to empty two full clips into before they go down, and they come out of the hospital relatively intact...and then there's the ones that believe a bullet's immediately lethal, no matter where they're hit, and they usually die of shock before the EMT's show up.'

 

Pretty good stuff - I've done a lot of that stuff without really thinking too much about it. On the other hand, there are some points in there I think I need to study...

 

Outstanding story. Really makes you think about how your attitude affects reality - even your own life or death. Good story to meditate on.

 

bump

 

Hey all, i'm having pretty strange time right now, all is fine but i'm gonna be a bit quiet for a while... i need to absorb lots of recent learning and level out. Actually i feel i've just 'leveled up'. Hey ho

 

lol...reality, the ultimate rpg...



see you around

:cheers2:

 

Funny, I feel like I'm at a new stage, too. Not leveled up LOL but something is changing. All my old toys don't thrill me like they used to. What does this mean? If I can't find any other distractions, I might have to go back to writing the damn book...

 

yeah, I know the feeling, I think it's something in the air to tell the truth....'change is in the air'

 

Something in the air? I didn't fart, I swear...

 

obviously, lol...I'm still breathing....

 

So B25, I'm awaiting illumination. What is the outcome of your current relationship? Are you following through with your stated intentions of a few posts ago, and what were the outcomes? I want to know if there's something I can learn from your experiences.

 

I'm allowing the universe to take care of things, worried about getting myself on track, and letting her do as she feels she must.

I actually had a couple of words (not unpleasantly) with her yesterday, as after a week of being sick, I let her know, and she wished for me to get well soon, and take care of myself, so we're on 'very arm's lenght lolite company' speaking terms.

Even then, the 'emotional distance' of it made my heart hurt. She's still projecting her defensive masks as hard as she can, but I know the 'real' her is in there somewhere, and when she finally wakes up and looks around, she's going to be real unhappy with the situation. But it's her situation now. I've said all I can say, done all I can do, and forgiven everything. I love her, but talking to her hurts right now. Maybe time'll do us both good, but I'm not holding my breath for anything to happen. She does seem to be losing her anger, which helps. Once she's done being mad, maybe the situation can move forward.

(shrugs) The universe can handle it.

 

Just remain a friend to the REAL her, although this may mean withdrawing somewhat from the masks ... the 'game' relationship. Just try and keep it real and not get sucked into her drama. being true to the REAL you is also being true to the REAL her, the two are the same. Pandering to ego and illusion helps neither in the long term and just keeps the status quo and nothing changes. But remember she can only change herself and you can only change yourself... so like i said, just be a friend whatever.

Some random stuff going on with me right now; A few years ago i realised that instead of studying dreams and their symbolism, one can almost as easily look at the symbolism in ones waking life .... it's like a solidified dream and just as symbolic.
And for a long time i've realised that sometimes people 'say things' which are like 'messages' for me ... it's like wisdom from the mouths of babes .... they say it with one intention and you hear it with that same intention but also hear it on a deeper level where it has a different meaning ... like a message from within yourself, or from the universe or from ones anima/animus. - An inner dialogue reflected in the outer world. This has happened occasionally for me for a long time but in the last year it's happened alot, and in the last several months almost on a daily basis ... sometimes more than once in a day and i've been listening and actually working with it and paying serious attention to these 'messages', as in giving them validity and not shrugging them off as paranoia (lol). Since reading Eckhart talking very matter of factly about the outer world literally being symbolic... just like dreams, i can only agree with him because it's what i've been experiencing. Everything we do is symbolic if one cares to notice the minutae of it.
Also ... i've had a wierd week because i quit smoking last Sunday and this is to do with the 'threshold' i feel i have crossed. My self worth and my desire for sanity and reality has got to a point where i just know it's the thing to do, NOW (for me) and that i have a choice. My addictive habits tie me to the status quo and unrealty, so it's like im kinda saying "That isn't who i really am ... this is who i really am." But also i realise that perhaps a little hardship would help me appreciate life a little more and that taking 'the path of least resistance' doesn't really help one grow or become stronger. This is about excersising my WILL.
"It doesn't matter" is actually one of my highest/deepest truths because it's about an inner reality, a reality beyond the outer world and duality. ..all is one and at the end of the day, despite successes and failures in our outer reality, it really doesn't matter. I found this out years ago when i had my NDE.
But there IS an outer reality to think about; the survival of our planet and the life that exists on it, the future of our own human race, our vehicle for the evolution of conciousness. Can we say "It doesn't matter" and let everything die before even trying? - THAT is the path of least resistance, and so for the time being i don't want to take the idea that 'things matter' too seriously because i know the ultimate truth of it, but as far as the outer reality is concerned i'd like to keep a balance, give things my best shot and leave saying, "it doesn't matter' for when i really need to say it.
For a long time i've known that the great goddess, the Mother, loves unconditionally and in a sense, it's her that says "it doesn't matter". Yet since quitting smoking this week i've had a definite sense of 'God the father' and the 'love of the father' in my week and a couple of 'messages' to back it up.
God the mother has the ultimate inner truth and is primary, but God the father has a point which is worth listening to, yet being connected with outer transient reality, is secondary but very valid.

Oh yeah, another reason i quit smoking is cause' is makes me feel shit without any ganja in it and ganja is just too expensive and problematic to deal with these days too so i've quit that too, Waaaa! ... i'll still eat it though when i get the chance . Actually my sis' came up trumps on tuesday with some 'Charas eating oil' ... just what the doctor ordered! I'd had a row with one of my bosses on monday, and cried my eyes out most of tuesday, LoL ..i cried on the bus, it was a bit embarrassing, but since then everythings been cool and i'm feeling great but feeling melancholy and emotional one moment and loved up the next. No sleepless nights or anything yet though which is cool.
The guy Richard i had sessions with years ago said, regarding smoking; "Just make the decision and die to it naturally." and "Once you start on this path there's no going back." - So that's what i intend to do.

 

I'm so frustrated.

Can anyone "read" me? Can anyone tell me what the hell I'm supposed to do??

Help.