Will it ever stop hurting

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omg so today i was really bummed cuz i had just gotten in a fight with my mom and without me even saying anything he took me aside and asked if i was ok. so i told him everything that was wrong and he bought me a drink/pretzel (we were at a bowling alley). so he gave me one of those no time limit hugs where he just held me for a good 30-45 minutes (i wasn't timing it but i know thats at least how long it was). with anyone else i would've let go but i sat there crying in his arms and he didn't even try to let go until i felt better.

he wanted for me to stay over but his parents wouldn't let me and its not like i was going to be like "tell them its a crisis." i wrote a letter to my mom and im gonna let him read it. hopefully i can get another one of those really long hugs...it was nice really really nice. i don't think i've ever been more peaceful even though i was crying because after a while i just kept crying because of how great he was to me

 

does ur mom know ur gay ?

 

no she doesn't

 

so why is she like upsetting u do yall not get along on a reg

 

She's been emotionally and mentally abusive to me most of my life and one day over dinner she said i failed her as a son (we had been fighting most of the day) so that was the final straw and i walked out of her house. For a while I had been staying at my Dad's but things got complicated Saturday and it was too much for me to handle on Sunday so without even asking my best friend comes and picks me up and I stay at his house Sunday, spend the day with him, stay at his house monday, and spent the day with him. Unfortunately school starts tomorrow and I had to come back home but he and his family said their door is always open.

 

oh well that sucks......well school will keep u away from ur rents for most of the day and if u join like school clubs and stuff u will barely need to see them and now that school is starting u can meet a nice guy or girl to fool around with

 

Sounds like you have a truly amazing friend there!I've had a couple crushes on straight guys before,and had my heart broken Neither of my crushes even came close to what you guys have though!Those really long hugs,the fact that he's cool with you for who you are,the fact that you guys are SOOOO tight,leads me to believe that perhaps way way deep down inside;he has feelings for you too.I don't know...

If he's 1000 % straight..for real;consider yourself so damn lucky to have someone so awesome in your life!I just have a feeling that he may need alot more time to open up to you if there's anything there.For your sake;I hope there is.

I just wish you all the best,either way

 

OMGGGGGGG I never thought it would happen. 3 days ago I went over to his house to help him study for his homework and at one point we were on his sofa studying while his parents weren't there. And he didn't understand my explanation on a math problem so he looked up at me looking perplexed then I was looking back and we just held it for a while. Then he started coming closer and I felt like I was going closer too. The perplexed expression melted from his face and he just kinda stared at me. We were really close for a while and started slowing down. I could feel him breathing on my face.

Then all of a sudden he went for it and kissed me and we started making out. He was a great kisser by the way. We heard his parents come in the house a few minutes later so we went back to studying. Neither of us fully understand what we're doing now but he said he liked it and you know I did. As I would expect he doesn't want to be open about it but he wants to date or whatever you call this. I haven't seen him since that afternoon but I've talked to him since and I'm so excited. I'm staying over at his house tonight I think so hope that everything goes well.

 

oooooo boy get urs lol happy for you