Billie John january 27, 1979 I really need a reading. There is so much going on right now and I just need a little insight. Thank you.
These current concerns are trivial in the overall scheme. What you really need right now is to trust. Your higher self knows what you need and where you're going. Do you know where you want your life to go? Think about this, and let your vision for your life lead you. You are NOT a victim. You have power you aren't aware of. You are in charge of your own destiny - consciously claim the power that is already yours, and make your life what you want it to be. We are spirits having a human experience - claim the power of your spirit, and take responsibility for your story. Where do you want to go from here? It's your decision - you HAVE the power to decide. Claim and use that power.
I wish it is that easy. I know what i want but it involes another person and if he is not on the same page as me how do I get him there? it is driving me nuts. I do know what I want but I do not know what he wants. he asked me to marry him two years ago but i can not even talk to him about the future. " he is waiting for me to get better" any insight onthat wold be great....
Yes Starbright, here's my insight: This man is not what you want. Think about it - am I not right? Make a list of all the things you want in a man, and compare that list to this guy, and then tell me I'm wrong. Then haul up anchor and cast away. I didn't say it would necessarily be easy. It may be very hard at times. That's why you need a clear vision of what you're after, and you need to hold onto that vision no matter what happens.
Your inner journey, your inner purpose, is your spiritual path and can only really involve you and that means not waiting around for others to come with you because THAT path is one we walk alone. Two people can sit next to eachother and do this but they'd still be doing it independently of eachother. Relationships are something different from this and should really be seen as friendships rather than as a way of finding wholeness or as a way of feeling ones life is complete... we can only really be whole within ourselves and although relationships can last a lifetime ... they usually don't and they come and go. - This is why we need to be whole within ourselves ... so we can cope with all the coming and going. Nobody is holding you back from your spiritual path but yourself.
but am i just wishing for what does not exisit? Are my standerds too high? am i fooling myself? The complicated part is we have been toher for 8 years, we have a 5 year old daughter in common. ai do not know what to do. Your insight is so complacated for me becasue i love him dearly. But it seems like no matter how much i love him will makes things right. But i am in no way prepared to move on. either way i lose. either way i will have a broken heart, and I really do not want to go through that
Starbright, when i was 25, the only woman i ever truly loved, messed with my head and nearly destroyed me, my self worth and my will to live. I WAS totally heartbroken. I couldn't understand why she seemed to turn against me and hate me so mutch. She ended the relationship and completely blanked me ... stonewalled me, and i tried so hard to understand and tried so hard to get her to understand me, but she wouldn't and couldn't. In the next year and a half of overwhelming emotional pain and panic attacks i slowly began to understand that she simply hated herself and was unable to help herself. Eventually she said she would talk to me when i had 'sorted myself out' ... yet there was nothing wrong with me, - the day when i would 'sort myself out' would never come. There was nothing i could do at that point but let go of her, ... she was everything to me, yet i had to let go, ...after all i couldn't force her to do anything against her will. I could see through her pain to the one who wanted to love so mutch but couldn't ... because her pain wouldn't let her, so, with love i let go. It didn't mean i had to stop loving her, just that i had to let go of her, with the prospect of perhaps never seeing or talking to her again. Some things, are out of our hands. When things don't fit or cannot be, or the time just isn't right, sometimes there is nothing we can do but let go, because we cannot force things... But trust me, there is so mutch love in letting go... to give freedom to someone you love, to give freedom for love to exist at all. And just take faith and courage that you are loved, ...always.
I've been through hell too, Starbright. I left a live-in girlfriend in my youth and divorced my first wife after 13 years of marriage, and have also been treated like shit and dumped on more than one occasion. I've had heartaches and hell you wouldn't believe. I know how hard it is. You're the one who gets to decide. If things are not bad enough to make you leave him, then stay. If you leave him you'll be alone - at least for a while. How long - who can say? Being alone is not the end of life. It's hard at first, if you've been used to being with someone, but you get used to it. And remember, you don't necessarily need to keep being alone. You might meet someone else...especially if you're doing the visualizations and positive affirmations to attract the kind of person you want. If it becomes too painful to stay with him, you'll leave. You're the one to judge if you've reached that point. Sometimes there are no alternatives without pain. Then you need to either find a way to be happy with what you have, or think about which option has the most hope for eventual happiness and then go for it.
