Right, I'm almost at the end of a 12 month Methadone Detox program. After being on Heroin for nearly a decade, I had great difficulty recalling my dreams. Recently I keep having a really vivid recurring dream. I'm a teenager again, I'm going on a group holiday to a big amusement park with all the people out of my Year at school. There's a huge pool at the park with loads of slides/waves etc, and everyone's having a laugh. Suddenly these little blue and green troll-like creatures swarm into the room and start killing everyone, and a massive black shape appears underwater in the pool and starts dragging any swimmers underwater. I try to help my friends, but they all die horribly. Eventually, I'm the only one left alive, I get surrounded by the monsters, the largest one steps forward and tears my head off. He throws it to the monster in the pool, I get the sensation of spinning round while falling, and I can still see through the eyes, and as the pool monster's mouth opens to eat my head I wake up. It's freaking me out, I've had exactly the same dream about 4/5 times that I remember. Any thoughts?
Hi RecoveringJunkie, here is a thought and please keep in mind it's just that - letters on a screen. But what you make of the dream is what gives it meaning. I thought the dream helps you understand the times you're going through just from a different perspective. As you are all parts of the dream and in full charge of whichever energy you invited and so, you may use it to tap into your own power and healing no matter how gross it comes across. Imagine the mind eating monster in the lake is you. The amusement park is the life experience you've been going through. The monster who eats you up, asks nothing but what remains? And so, sometimes all that remains is to make it a blessing - all of it - the whole experience - without hesitation, doubt, regret or guilt feelings, without fear, and without drama. Bless the monster and say thank you for what you've shown me. I am more whole because of you. Imagine the monster tells you the very same thing, so that you both are equal in the sharing. Make it your medicine so to speak. Be whole and grow with it. This is what came into my mind, yah just simple advice but I hope it makes sense. Thank you for sharing.
I know that a lot of the time, heroin users lose a lot of their friends to the drug whether they die from an overdose or "clean" friends distance themselves from you. Do you think that this could be the cause of your nightmares?
