opiateless.. & goin crazy

its been two or three weeks since I've done any oxy and Im starting to think I may be psychologically addicted to oxy, or I just like it ALOT. shit, the last three weeks have been fine because I was smokin herb all day, but now that I gotta flush my system of the THC for a drug test coming up sept. 11.

Now I stopped smoking weed sept. 1st, so this gives me 10 days or so to get clean or I go to prison for 2 years lol.. but no worries, cuz I've learned my body's metabolism. I've passed the same probation drug test with 14 days of being clean and not doing shit, Im assuming I can pass it with 10 days and drinking like a gallon of water a day; and beer like crazy on weekends to help me piss more. Now this is not advice for someone else on probation to quit 10 days before the test because u will probably fail.. you gotta know yourself, and my metabolism is insane so thats why it works for me. I can eat 5 full course meals a day and not gain a pound! Im pretty skinny (150 lbs) and almost 6 ft, so I barely have body fat, and the THC gets stuck in your body fat so that determines how long the THC will stay in your system.

Anways, this thread isnt about the drug test I gotta pass in a week, its about me not being able to find any opiates whatsoever and Im getting desperate.. its not that im addicted, I only used at most like once a week and can go weeks on end without them. Sometimes when I can buy them I dont because I dont want to. I bet if I had a hookup right now I wouldnt be typing this or buying pks. its just the fact that Im dry and I have no way of getting anything for god knows how long that has me anxious. lol no wonder I been abusing xanax for the last week, eating like 2 bars a day. which is really surprising for me too because I only used xanax weekly as well..

anyways, Im out of bars, but I dont care cuz I know I can get as many as I want whenever I want. but thats not the case with opiates, and thats whats got me "feeling desperate". although Im not really desperate because I have absolutely no cravings or w/d symptoms. I just like the high.

fuck it, I just started my college semester, so Im gonna concentrate on that. but what do you guys do in similar situations? and I could probably get vicodin but thats a waste of money to me, since they have no effect on me..

 

Well....

you might want to stay away from this stuff for a few months.

Personally,
every few months I like to play with poppies for a week
then I take a few months off...

It's probably not good to be dependent on pills.

 

are you really 84 and shit, what can I do? I like getting high! Im not addicted, and wont let myself get addicted, and see nothing wrong with recreational use..

 

You could order Kratom, an opium substitute, online: http://www.shamansgarden.com/c-525-all-kratom.aspx

That's what I'm doing right now. You can search for it on erowid to get more details.

I've only done it once at a moderate dose, and it felt like coming up on opiates. However, I did not do enough to continue this feeling for more than about an hour or less. Tomorrow I am planning to do more than I did to see if this really could be the "opium substitute" that I've read about.

 

Kratom feels much like an opiate to me.
There are different kinds of kratom
some are more speedy, some are more opiate-like
I don't know the differences, though

It always knocks me on my ass and I get rather nauseated until I lay down
then I have some of the best sleep ever and the dreams are wild......

 

hell yeah, i love sleeping on opiates, one of my favorite parts.

hhmmm, i'll look this kratom shit up, see if its any good. if you try a full dose and it compares to good opiates like opium, oxy, or h, LET ME KNOW ASAP!

and thinking about that makes me think of the most retarded thing i've ever done in my life.... I think I've told this story before. here it is again..

like 2 years back, while I was living in Orlando, one of my good friend's grandma died. Her nurses were trying to flush all her medication, and my dawg said fuck that to the nurse and snatched a bottle of 67 little orange pills before those dumb hoes could throw it away.

anyways, he comes over to my place with a folded paper with 67 OC40's! I didnt know whata fuck that was back then, he just asked me if I knew anyone who likes pills and would buy them. long story short, we sold them for like $90, we just assumed they were like $1-2 each. OMG, if that was to happen today, or if I knew whata fuck those orange pills were and how good they are, I WOULDA BUSTED A NUT WHEN I SAW ALL THOSE OCs! omg i wanna punch someone just thinking about that day. we had no clue we were holding pills that were worth their weight in gold!

 

famous last words
note to self : i really wasnt invincable, go figure.

 

im dead serious though. i would never let a drug control my life. hell, i dont even let love control my life!

even TooCrisp said it, im like the only person he knows that can sit on hundreds of mgs of oxy for months on end. If I was like some other junkies, I woulda been turned to an addict and been in rehab or jail considering all the drugs I had. I have a lot of self-control.

 

I let you know how the Kratom is soon :cheers2:

That story is very very sad That is a lot of fucking oxy.

 

Trust me on the kratom, it's awesome. In fact I like it more than opiates, because with repeat uses spread out over hours, it doesnt get buzzy like opiates do, and your mood doesnt turn sour afterwards. Just as pleasant of an experience, Id grab it before it too becomes illegal, the DEA is well aware of it and moving to close in like with Salvia.

And kil0, my friend, that is addiction. When your mood is affected in a negative way, when you cant just accept life and be happy instantly because your mind is concerned with a drug, that is addiction. You dont need to be physically dependant, your inability to totally enjoy life from the anxiety is addiction. This is something that will take a very, very long time to go away, much longer than physical withdrawl people go through. If you must, use the kratom to substitute but that too is very mentally desireable.
God Bless +

 

yeah bro its mental addiction, i never got physically addicted to anything, however im mentally addicted to everything, its been a year since i last done drugs but i think about them constantly, tell me how the kratom thing goes, ur an experienced opiate user so i want an opinion from someone like u, i might get some if its worth it...

 

Take it from me navajas it's awesome lol. I mean of course a broader range of perspectives is nice. I was a daily 120mg + Morphine/Oxycontin user for a long time, tried nearly every opiate under the Sun, most in excess. Kratom feels just like it, though the rush in the beginning is more speedy than opiates are. For me, it's 30 minutes of feeling a burst of energy and euphoria, followed by 4 hours of an opiate like buzz. It is well worth it.

 

WOW! what other legal highs r worth it? cuz like i said i only get high on vacations cuz that way ill never get addicted, when im on vacation i do loads of cocaine and heroin, when im home i do nothing not even pot, but i might try the legal high route now...

 

Honestly none as far as Im concerned. And it depends on where you order the kratom from, and what kind. There are very different experience reports, but mine repeatedly has been wonderful. PM me if you interested

 

Other legal highs that are like Kratom?

Barely any. I searched through a huge database of legal highs and most of them sucked (however I might try smoking catnip once).

 

I believe catnip is pheromonal (rather than alkaloidal)
so it would be better just to grow it and be near it, smelling it
or get a fresh cutting and keep it near your bed.

 

dayum son, that sucks. well i can say i was in the same boat at one point. just not being able to forget about that bittersweet powder clogging my nostrils.

breaks help. take at least a month off, smoke your bud, trip maybe, roll, but no coke or opiates. then see how it is.

thats my recommendation.

 

dnt bother

 

Honestly, a good way to forget about opiates is to keep yourself busy. For instance, I would probably just push myself to play guitar ALL day if I needed to stay away from them. I could also read about something INTERESTING (don't just fucking read a bad novel), watch a ton of South Park & Family Guy, get temporarily obsessed with energy drinks and caffeine, and learn to meditate.

If you want anymore ideas just ask lol, but I should be getting kratom later today anyway, so I can report on that.

 

I just ordered some katrom, the 15x, so I'll report on it when I get and try it on Monday night...

Oh, and BTW, the store mentioned earlier (something's Garden) is where I ordered, within an hour from ordering I got the Fedex tracking number (valid number too, it says its delivering on Monday), and email confirmation!