I'm going nowhere in life...

well 3 weeks ago (monday of the SECOND WEEK of school)my friend and i got arrested at my school with weed.
the jail people let us go since it wasn't a lot of weed etc etc, my friend didn't have a record and the shit on my record says "Charges dropped" so yeah they just let us go.

my friend got suspended for 10 days but i already had two suspentions and other shit with the school, so they told me if i didnt drop out id get kicked out.

so i dropped out, now i'm not in school. in november im going to go to this alternative school for drop-outs, but ive already automatically failed first semester i'm pretty sure

also i failed most of my classes last year because i didn't go to school that much
my mom is drug testing me in 4 weeks,

i'm broke, i have no job, i babysit once in a while and i had a job for like 2 months over the summer but i'm running out of the money i had saved up

idk i feel like such a fuck up right now because out of my group of friends, either they are going to school or at least enrolled in school and passing classes, or the other extreme like dropped out of school not doing shit with their lives

im stuck in the middle cuz i'm a fuck up but i'm still trying to graduate high school idk i don't know what i want to do because i want to be able to do something with my life but i can't make myself give a fuck...

like i need to choose either to do well at school or just party n shit i can't keep trying to balance everything like i have been for the past 2 years cuz it's not working

 

it's an illusion to think you'll ever go anywhere

so visualize who you want to be

and try and reach that goal.

things you could have never imagined will happen along the way

 

You always go somewhere and you always can steer the direction til some degree. Who cares if it isn't the shortest way? Only the squares

 

partying aint worth it dude, trust me stay in school. You will thank yourself when your 25.

 

Idk about that. I high school diploma doesn't mean anything anymore.

I dropped out and was glad I did. Why support the government social machine by supporting public schools?

I did get a ged and went to trade school. But realistically all the diplomas in the world aren't going to help you get a job or get a better job cause everybody in the world has one and it doesn't give you an advantage.

Today employers are more interested in cultural background and social class than any piece of paper you maight have. If you come from the top and didn't do much in school you're on the employer's top list. If you come from nothing and have degrees, you're on the bottom of the pile.

By the time I was 25 I was destitute and it didn't matter that I graduated from 2 of the top rated trade programs in the state.

So don't worry about what will happen when you're 25, worry about the present day and work through the problems you're having in the here and now. The future will form the way it wants to form regardless of what you do.

 

^ wow sounds exactly like something i would say...

except i realized a few months ago that i actually DO want to graduate high school, so i'm gonna go to the alternative school and graduate early n shit, but yeah i definitely want to live in the moment i think thats the best way to live

id rather live fast and die young than live to be 90 with no experience to show for it...

 

Thats cool man, I'm glad you've come to a decision about your plans. If you want to graduate I say go for it. All I'm saying is make sure your decisions are your own and don't buy into any crap people may tell you about what will make your life better or worse. Your path in the world is your own and yours alone so you have to make the decisions that are right for you regardless of other people's influence.

I hope the alt. school and the early grad. work out really well for you and I wish you the best of luck.

 

I think these are both great pieces of advice.
the things society would have you think important, aren't really that important.

 

yea haha.

this thread makes no sense i don't actually think like that, i was just stressed out when i wrote it.

 

my son attended an alternative high school and had a really good experience. he's a painter, and the art teachers in the regular public schools completely ignored his talent. in the alternative school they were putting on art shows for him. they were very supportive and nurturing, and treated him with respect. hopefully you'll have a good experience too. if not, you can try what my daughter did. she dropped out of high school, took her GED, and went to a local community college instead. she was treated like a grown-up there, and was much happier. she went onto a four year school, then onto graduate school. now she's an architect and doing something she's really into. there's some thoughts for ya anyways.

 

Brother, you are only 16. RELAX.

 

That's almost exactly like my older brother. He was completely forgotten in normal high school, but as soon as he got put into an alternative school he started writing and actually ended up winning close to a thousand dollars in various contests. I have heard nothing but good things about the alternative high schools.

 

You should get back in school, do well, and if you get the opportunity go post secondary. I regret never doing it. I could have saved 40,000 at my dream art school

 

You want to be like the kids still in classes, choose to surround yourself with them; if you wanna be like one of your dropout friends, surround yourself with them. Choose wisely, but trust me man, they control your social functioning.

 

To the OP glad your deciding to go to alternative school, i went to an adult re-entry school myself and because they aren't apart of the normal system they can just be normal people and treat you with respect.

Anyway i finished highschool a bit later but now i am studying what i want at Uni. The good thing about finishing highschool is if you don't know exactly what you want in life (I and alot of others im sure didnt know at your age) yet then you can have something to work at in the mean time.