Will I ever fall in love again?

I've got a huge problem, probably somebody can help me. 2 and a half years ago I met a boy, both of us fall immediatly in love. It was as if we were made for finding eatch other, we had very mutch in common, he was a hippie, a freak like me. I was perfectly happy, i just cant discribe it, it was like haeven, whenever I saw him, it was like every problem could be solved only with our love, but after I while it broke, because i was very jealous. (I was allways afreight of loosing him, and that was finally the reason I lost him, because I leeched on to him)
I tried really hard to keep him, but the more I wanted to convince him to stay with me, the more he went. It was a hard time, I cried a lot and lost weight, about 20 kg. Now almoust a year passed since we broke up, but I dream about 4 times a week of him. And sometimes when I remember spending my time at his place, when I reminisce, its as if I'm really there, I can recall the feelings I had, and the athmosphere, and the love.

I am so frightened, that I'll never fall in Love again. I just cant imagine, ever looking in anothers eyes and feeling that warmth I felt that time. Ever finding a soulmate like this.
Sometimes I think I'll never find someone who has the same ideals like me, and the same interessts. All boys seem so facile. I cannot imagine finding someone, as friendly as I'd love to have.

Now my question: Is it possible, ever falling in love again, and really love another, or is it only a cheesy copy of the first love?
Did you make the same experience as me? Did you find another? Do I only feel this way now, because love is blind? Will it one day stop??? Where are all the nice guys.

I'm so sorry for my bad english, hope you unterstand the message I will send to you

Love Diana iggy:

 

If you let yourself fall in love, it will happen. Most of the problems I had after my first big pseudo-love (or whatever it was, I'm not even sure) were internal, and until I confronted them I found it hard to attach to someone.

Viel Glück!

 

we have all wondered the same thing.

you need time to heal and it will happen when you have learned what you needed to from the situation. Each failed relationship teaches us so much about our ownselves when we see it in retrospect.

I'm sorry your heart hurts though. That's the greatest pain, at least to me.

 

Wow reading your the optimistic words, makes me thinking a bit positiver <3