Okay, I'm considering going to university in October but I am sh!t scared. For many reasons. Looking at the course information overwhelmes me. 4 years!!! 4 years!!! I'm studying IT but I only have a short interest in the subject. I have no interests. I'm in poverty and can't get a decent job. My careers advisor advised me to take up a university position because it's an extra £800 or more a year income unlike just being on benefits which is considerably less. University is fashionable. I don't have any clothes. I am uncertain whether I will be able to fit in. Experience tells me that people see the outside first and then judge you. I am 31 with the mind of a 60 year old. I don't think I'll make any friends which will make 4 years seem like 6. I can imagine myself being very unhappy (like now) but I need to do something or else I will go mad. I have no desires and no interests and the only reason I'm doing this is because I can't stay on the dole forever. I am a nihilist and nihilists long for the destruction of society not the building up of it. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well get some clothes first since you have none..Then backpack around the world with your guitar for the rest of your life...or just do whatevathefuck makes you happy bro
hi, im planning on doing a corse at home, but ive been procastinating for ages about it, coz like u said i didnt have any interests either, but i found something i enjoy now and think its the right time to persue it....also studying at home means you can avoid all the worrys of starting a university and not fitting in etc and just get a qualification on your own time. study when your ready, if you r in the UK, look at the Open university they can offer financial support to if ur on a shitty wage. best of luck.
