I need to take a break or slow down

This weed is really affecting me negatively. I think i need to slow down or stop. Recently, I've been smoking at least everyday, most of the time with other people.

This shit is making me think slow and makes me extremely lazy. I quit one of my jobs, and my mother is blazing me cause i just sleep all day.

ALso i'm so naive and unaware of shit when im stoned. Mind you i usually get really high on one blunt. I dont know why, but my tolerance for weed seems to go NOWHERE. I just get high off one blunt.

I mean i can still talk and shit,( a lot of the times i'll say probally some stupid shit im unaware off lol. And i BET that is the case ). but im unaware of things and dont really pay attention to stuff.

Its like i can't trust anyone i'm not really kool with either. I was skull fucked hard last night. This guy tricked my mind so hard.Me and this guy i worked with once went to gangbang this nympho last night. So we smoke a blunt and head down to the chicks house.

Now i dont know if anyone has tried this, but stoned sex SUCKS. Its hard to concentrate. I dont know why i didn't wait to after to smoke the blunt. It was some good weed though, had me high. And i thought the other guy was high too..i couldn't tell, and didn't really care.

We dont usually chill together, but i thought we were kool. So after we finish with the girl, i drop him off at his house, and he's like all of a sudden he can't find his key...so we both searched the car. The key was nowhere to be found.

Now he's like he'll go knock on his door maybe someone will answer, his parents or something. ANyway, he gets in the house...i dont know how..probally his key, and waves me off.

I get to my place, and start to relax. I'm still feeling high off that blunt so i ate some munchies and laid down and watched t.v.

The guy called me and was like what was the girls number , maybe she found the key or something. I wasn't really paying attention and believed him and everything, so i give him the girls number.

Now i wasn't thinking when i gave him the number, i really did think he lost the key. And the girl that we hit, was one of my freaks back from school. But come to find out...the girl calls me back, and said the guy tried to get talk to her, he didn't mentin ANYTHING about a key. I guess he was trying to get more sex from her or whatever. But it was meant to be an only one time thing.

So this guy had tricked me into giving him the girls number. If she wouldn't have called me, i would have thought nothing about it....

I am so naive, and was completely unaware and got conned. Its like i can't trust anyone but my closest friends and family.

This smoking everyday has got to stop, cause its really ruining me. Im out here with no money trying to rob people and shit. I really need to get my shit together.

I thought stoners were good people why would the guy con me, and i thought we were kool too.

I think i need to just only smoke by myself or with my closest friends in moderation.

Sorry for the rant...but this weed thing is not as good as its cracked up to be. I think i've really lost myself fucking with this drug.

 

well dont outweigh the weed just cause one prick tried to screw you over for sum pu55y. Considering you just went to "gangbang this nympho" i would prolly do the same thing after I just chilled with her if she was a 5lut lol. But if its having a negative affect jst quit for a little and see what happens.

 

"I thought stoners were good people"

And yet you're trying to rob people? Sorry man but this sounds like a case where an asshole is just made into a stupid asshole by weed. I think you need to evaluate much more than your drug habits my friend.

 

Man forget that slut, because first of all, we didn't chill with her, we didn't let her hit the blunt or anything. But i mean if thats what you call it. lol

Second of all, its the PRINCIPLE of the whole thing. He tried to play me like i was stupid or something, or was i just that high????

I mean , come on, its just pussy. I would have DEFINATELY gave him the number if he had ASKED ME.

Cause that's how i got her number, one of my other boys gave it to me.

So you know? We just pass that slut around like purple kush. But homeboy like really tried to carry me with the key missing crap. Or does he need pussy that bad? is he a nympho? Am i trippin?

I'm about to say fuck both of them ,and never call either one of them again.

And by the way, when i meant robbing. That had nothing to do with weed, i was just having some bad money problems. But i never really did, it shouldn't have even crossed my mind. I dont know how stuff like this gets into my head....maybe it was the weed?

You know. things were much more simpler with alcohol. And the crazy ting is i tried weed first. But im really starting to thing, that for me, its a personal thing. I need to only smoke by myself or with close friends

 

maybe try picking a time of the day or some time of the day and day

 

weed's fucked you up. big time.
reading too far into things. not trusting people.
shitty judgemental skills.
no nice way to say this.
stay the fuck off it and sort yourself out.

 

I think too many people make the mistake of thinking weed's supposed to be a constant thing because it feels so good the first several times you do it. Doing it too much changes that. You have to understand the power of the herb and only use it once in awhile. Respect the herb, man, and she'll respect you back.

 

as with all things, and i'll say it again;
moderation is key.

 

idk, the first 10 times or so i did weed it was really intense and very dissociative like (like your not in your head, your somewhere else), and i would be really fucekd up at like parties and shit, but after doing every day for a while its just really nice when i get high because everything is just alot better, trippier and awesome but im not totally fucked up.

 

The weirdest thing about this thread is not how weed has affected this guys life, and I am afraid that I am the only person noticing that.

 

Yeah seriously..:toetap05: