i dn't think so. i've been smoking since i was 13, started smoking regularly when i was 14. when i was 14 i also did coke a lot for a few months and drank a LOT, 15 experimented with lots of pills and shit like that, now i smoke weed every day, drink on the weekends, and do pills once in a while and coke hardly ever. but i don't think i'm that fucked up...depends what you mean by fucked up tho.
I started smokin' weed about a week after turning 13. I'd just started Secondary School (Highschool), I was bullied a lot as a child so I wanted to get in with the 'in crowd'. I did, and for the first couple of weeks we'd all meet up and get pissed, one day one of my friends pulled a spliff out his pocket that he'd swiped from his brother, we smoked it, and it was the best buzz I'd ever had. From then on, instead of drinking we'd all chip in for a bag of weed, a couple of older guys in the group scored for us, and we'd smoke £20 worth between about 6-7 of us. Good times, but my addictive nature and compulsive/highly inqusitive personality got me into a lot of trouble. I'd tried Acid,K,E's,speed and Heroin by the time I was 15, never to serious excess, but probably more that was healthy. At 16/17 I was going to raves at least 2-3 times a month caining e's/k/coke like they were going out of fashion. Up until this point, I was fine with where my head was at. I did very well at school, started to sit my A-Levels, then I started partying with a group of people who did a lot of H after clubbing, had myself a few smokes, and 6 months later I had a £30 a day habit. Shit just went downhill from there, 9 years later I was injecting anything from £150-£200 a day and was doing all kinds of dodgy shit to fund my habit, I got a massive infection in my calf through injecting in my femoral vein, nearly died and ended up with DVT. I've been H free for 2yrs, and opiate free for a month, since I recently finished my Methadone detox Now I just smoke a little pot, and drop some acid/shrooms now and again. After all this I don't think doing drugs at an early age had much of an adverse affect on me, other than making me more open/willing to trying new drugs. I can't say it's affected my intelligence either, as I'm starting a Bsc in Molecular Chemistry next October. Doing drugs to excess however, did fuck me up in the end. Being an addict for so long screwed me up emotionally/mentally, it's like the part of my brain that used to care about things doesn't work anymore, everything seems equally meaningless and pointless. I also have serious trust issues, am a total cynic, and find it difficult to talk to/bond with people who haven't been through the same things I have. Hopefully these feelings will lessen with time, but after speaking with people who've been opiate free for longer that I have I'm starting to doubt it.
well kind of, sometimes i just block and i`m unable to think or to give and receive any brain activity at all
I started smoking when I was twelve. I'm not gonna say it has damaged me, but I'm not gonna say it hasn't, because honestly, I don't really know. I don't feel like it has fucked me up, but thats not really for me to decide.