Was absolutely amazing It was an alone one for most of the night so I stayed introspective the stars were in prime viewing capacity and i decided to rearrange my soul and let some old things and ways pass I completely gave myself the tune up I always needed I finally honestly think I can be a functioning human being now Its weird to think of how weak our minds are. Yet at the same time so fucking strong boy it sure feels really great to finally put to bed some of my demons year after year moment after moment I was still holding on to this stupid fucking thing i had done so fucking long ago when I was a completely different person looking for some kind of attention from anyone searching for some kinda love BUT ITS ALLLL OK NOW!!!!! Even as I sit here writing this post tears streaming down my face... Glad that the nightmare that became me is finally gone I have no one to blame for it besides myself but I have finally let it go and as you now read this I hope to you i can pass something I want to stress just how important we people are! Keeping contact between each other sharing all these experiences we were always meant to share living these lives were supposed to live sharing the ups the downs the highs and lows it is frightening just how fast we can blink out of existence SO PLEASE LOVE EVERYONE YOU HAVE THE PLEASURE OF MEETING UNCONDITIONALLY EXPRESS ALL IDEA WITH THEM AND REMEMBER THEY COULD BE GONE TOMORROW THIS POST GOES OUT TO MY BOY CHI You sure did have a short life buddy but I know in my heart that you are eternall and surely we didnt know each other to well but god damnit for the past 3 days i have been wasting away not able to get over the fact that I never went that far to make that connection with you I had my own agenda and time and they were unfortunately different at the time I apologize I did not come to the hospital for the last day of your life damnit brother me and ant were going to come you just died to fast and its a fucking shame because i know you i know the person you were the things you did the people you helped and I took you for fucking granted just like I have so many other people man honestly man to man chi I thank you because you have opened my eyes to something big I WILL MISS YOU EVERYDAY I KNOW YOU WILL BE BACK WITH US SOON BUT I WONT KNOW YOU RIP BROTHER
Sounds beautiful man, I had a trip like that recently where the feeling of acceptance of everything in the world, in spite of everything that's happened up til this point.
i can relate with you a little on that one. im away at school right now and a friend of mine (not a very close one, but a good guy that was just confused) killed himself on saturday night. last time i left his presence i dont even think i said bye to him...but i feel like he probably fixed whatever was driving him mad, and if there is some sort of higher power after death, than he, and your friend, will know how we truly feel now, and they will be greatful. as long as you realized your mistake and spoke out an apology, i feel that everything will be alright.
