I may be bi. I"ve got a chance to have an experience with a guy, but... Should I go for it? Most of the people I know are close-minded and would disown my ass if anybody ever heard anything about it, but... I'm one of the ones who'd be in denial and wind up doing stupid shit to try and forget about it, but... I can't ignore what I'm feeling... I'd love to have that experience... This is the only opportunity that has come up though, and if it passes either by choice or not, I might not have a chance for a looooooooooooong time... What the hell do I do if that happens? I'm confused as hell right now...
When I reflect back on my life, most of my regrets focus on the things I didn't try rather than the things I actualy did. It's your call though.
I'm confused as fuck. That's what I'm trying to say... I live in a religious household. I am religious. I was raised religious. When I hit about 17, I decided "Whoa. Hold up, I need to quit being a puppet and decide this shit on my own." I decided to stick with what I grew up believing, and it took a lot of soul searching to reach that conclusion. I don't really give a shit, man... Here's what I believe. I'm a Christian. The Bible says Christ's death washed away ALL sin. I don't necessarily believe that same sex relations are a sin. However... Even if it were a sin, it's covered. It says ALL sin. It doesn't say "Well, all sin except banging somebody of the same sex as you. You do that you're going to hell you perverted asshole." Sadly, that's the drivel that so many Christians believe... I don't. If it is a sin, it's forgiven anyway, so why should everybody worry about it so damn much? *shakes head* Not all Christian people are bad, but some are so damn misled it's not even funny... When will they learn that gay people aren't evil? That's part of the conflict inside of me... Plus the fact that some members of my family might lynch me if they found out... Plus, I'm curious, not sure if I am or not... What if I'm not and I find out after the sex... What if I regret it? I'm not necessarily having any doubts... I'm just being me. I think of all possible ends my mind can come up with before I do something major... and having sex is a major thing in my point of view. Man, this shit is confusing... Even more confusing is the fact that I want to experience it as top and bottom... I know a guy I could hook up with easy for oral... I'm OCD though... I can only think "What if the dude doesn't take good care of himself? What if he hasn't showered that day? Dude, that'd be not cool." I'm also afraid I'm going to run into an asshole... Let's just say I'm not up for swallowing at the moment... A couple dudes I've talked to won't do it if that's not part of the deal... I'm not trying to hook up with those two at the moment... There's one guy though... I think I might be in the clear... Shit... I need some really wise advice on this one...
I agree with yarapario. Take in from the old guys. Your only young once. The only regrets I have are the oppertunities I gave a pass to because I was shy, or afraid someone would find out, or afraid that someone who would know would not appove. I only appoval you need is your own. <(^o^)>
I can understand some of your missgivings. Most guys I know who are into guy on guy sex keep up on there personal hygiene. Showering togather is a lot of fun. Washing each other down is stimulating. As far as swallowing, it does not teaste bad. It's not harmful. And it's a good source of proten. Relax take a deep breath and go for it. <(^o^)>
