So, I met this girl completely at random (on the internet mind you) in fact I posted in the personals section on craigs for the first and only time. The same thing I posted in the personals here actually; which her mother found randomly browsing and gave to her. She was the ONLY response I received! We exchanged a couple emails and met last Friday. We talked for nearly 6 hours straight about anything and everything, and I can honestly say that there is not one thing about her that I don't like. Shes 5'5"-ish 105 lbs, dark hair, and her eyes are each a different color which I was intrigued with from the beginning. Shes absolutely gorgeous, but that's not all, she has an amazing and open personality. Like me shes passionate and opinionated and knows what she wants out of life. She has two young kids which is not a deterrent to me, as I have one of my own. She has been married just as I have and also like me has been through a lot of and come out on the other side ready and willing to love again. I feel like we are both in the same spot in our lives which has enabled us to really be honest about how we feel and be fully self expressed about or feelings for each other. She has an amazingly deep and profound sense of who and where she is, and she is very in to astrological signs. Shes a cancer and I am a scorpio which as I understand is one of the best matches. One paragraph that I read about that match said there could be love at first sight and thats what I think I have found. I only met her once last friday then we talked on the phone several times and we both starting getting really excited. My heart was beating so fast and I was short of breath and she said she was as well. We are absolutely in awe of the amazing connection we have. We have shared so much in the past few days and I feel like I could tell her everything. Unlike any other woman I have ever met however, she takes all my passion and excitement and dishes it right back at me. Some might say its obsession or infatuation, but I know myself well enough to tell the difference. I truly feel I am falling in love with her and her with me, but this is all new territory for me I am little scared at how fast this is progressing. I have never before been so ready and willing to take somebody into my heart and I dont know how it happened but she just shot like an arrow straight through all my defenses. For those that might ask, we have not had sex yet, nor have we even kissed. But I feel a connection unlike any I have every felt before. The more I talk about her the harder I am falling, I just cant imagine a more perfect match. I'm 27 and I feel like a little school kid with my first crush! haha Do any of you think it is possible that this could be real? Could it be love after only 5 days?
well, it happened to me, in almost similar circumstances.. the connection and synchronicity were there from the start.. and it's still going strong, very strong.. go with your feelings and see where it leads.. love your sig, by the way ZenDragon..
So... interesting thing came of this. The first couple of weeks were nothing short of amazing. Amazing connection and it went both ways she was as affectionate as myself and she seemed so confident in her feelings which is what turned me on about her. However, I think she started having second thoughts regarding her life, her kids, and her state of mind. So she broke it off saying it was overwhelming, though this all seemed to happen in a day. I understand how she might be overwhelmed by so much passion so quickly, though I simply can not comprehend how one could go from where we were to nothing in such a short period of time. It wasn't as though she just asked to slow it down, she simply severed all ties and disappeared. Love is such a strange and mysterious thing; to bring something like this into my life so randomly then just as randomly take it away. If there is only one thing I can take away from this situation; it is the knowledge and confidence that I am actually capable of loving like with all my heart and soul.
None, haven't talked to her since, unfortunately. Though If shes not into it; whatever the reason, Im not going to try to force myself on her. If she ever changes her mind, she knows how to get a hold of me. I'm not too worried about it, in fact I'm eternally grateful to her for even just those few weeks. It showed me what people are capable of if they keep an open mind and an open heart. Clearly, I was much more prepared for it than she was at that point in her life, but I cant fault her for that.
Just in case it is an infatuation, why don't you wait until you can list 10 of her (semi-) permanent faults (we all have them). <cough cough> Wait until you can list 10 of her permanent faults that you are willing to endure before deciding anything long term. i.e. get to know her before jumping into things too deep.
I wasn't deciding on anything long term, I had not mentioned any commitment or anything that would have suggested I was expecting long term. Just that she was an awesome woman. Yes I did see her faults, I know nobody is perfect. The fact that they didn't matter meant something to me, as I'm usually the first one to point them out. For the first time in my life, I was finally able to drop all the pretenses and expectations and look past things that should not matter and just love somebody unconditionally. Im not the type of person that gets infatuated, I am a very logical person, I dont normally fall in love easily. In fact it usually takes me years to get to know somebody before I start to have feelings for them. Ive been through a lot; I was married for 7 years, and I have a 9 year old son and from a high school relationship. I have had a lot of time to think about the difference between love and infatuation. I have accepted the fact that she just had a lot going on in her life, I think she got scared and just wasn't ready to open herself up like that. I'm not upset, I'm not disappointed, I'm not angry. I'm just thankful for having experienced such a thing as some people might go their entire lives and never love like that. No point in dwelling on things I cant control. I just hope she finds happiness, she deserves it!
