Good god are flashbacks really this bad?

Hi all.. This is my first post here... I hope I don't bore you all to tears

This year has been an amazing year for me. Starting with boxing day last year. My brother and I went to a doof outside of Perth and he gave me a few dexis and half a pill... Since then I've opened my eyes to the drug and psytrance world and I can't see myself ever looking back.

I met my girlfriend a few weeks later. At the time she was praising the wonders of acid and over the next 5 months I'd come to think of acid as a pretty intense and enlightening drug. Steve Jobs said taking acid was in his top three educational experiences of his life... Good god I was excited!

I finally got to try it on a cold, cold night at Royal Doof a few hours outside of Melbourne. We started with a drop... and then another one an hour later. Later I'd find that this was the strongest acid any of my group of four had ever taken, with an estimated 30 - 50 trips between them..

An hour or so after the acid had started to hit my girlfriend and I decided it was time to head back to our tent. Without lighting nor presence of mind it wasn't long before we were lost, I fell over and I was left to fend for myself. I didn't do a very good job of that...
Damnit I don't think I can tell this story well...

Suffice to say I died in a relentless loop of mundane thoughts and replayed experiences and dreams... I'm not articulate enough to describe the amazing eternal existence I had found... I'd love to visit there again, but with a little more sanity. I'd love even more to be capable of describing it -- words are far too clumsy.

It was a horrible, horrible trip. After a while I managed to come to terms with having died... Then later I realized that when I thought about warmth I started feeling warmer. So I thought about the sun and then I could see. I thought about having a smoke with my girlfriend and suddenly I had the ability to walk around and look for her. The poor girl was stuck in a tent mourning my death... apparently I had screamed at her that I didn't want to die before she absentmindedly left me to my death. We'd both had a horrible time =(

Anyways - the point of my post:

I've had a few trips since then and most have been quite pleasant.

However last Saturday, four months since that night, I had a couple of cones and started cooking some food. I was thinking about growing up.. generally... I thought about how nice it'll be to have a child one day and watch it grow and face similar trials, learn similar lessons, and hopefully become an improved version of me... It was quite pleasant! Then I turned to my girlfriend, told her I was having a bad trip and spent the next few minutes stuck in the exact loop I died in on the forest floor. I'm amazed at how perfectly my state of mind from that night came back and replaced every piece of sanity I had.. I was there again. The feeling of the dead branches scraping against my skin. The sand pushing up my pants. The relentless cold.... The hopelessness and the sadness... everything I could remember was exactly the same again (well that's a neat trick Mr Brain!).


I had no idea flashbacks could be so intense. It floored me. Had I been driving on a freeway I would be dead for serious. Do you lot have
similar experiences with flashbacks? My "me" left that kitchen and rolled around on a forest floor hundreds of kilometers away.... Have your's been that invasive?

I'm frightened of acid now. I suspect I can have good trips like everyone else, but what the HELL!?! That flashback was far more than I bargained for... Damnit wasn't it enough that I died :'(

Recently I had an amazing day walking around the city watching the buildings wiggle and the people breath... I've been looking forward to properly trying it at Earthcore in a few weeks time, but there'll be no acid for me. Perhaps at rainbow serpent.

 

That sounds horrible, man.
The only flashbacks I've ever experienced have been a few seconds where things look like they're moving or flickering.

Hubbard suggests that the two best things for removing LSD residues from the body are sitting in saunas and niacin.
So buy yourself some over the counter niacin supplements and spend some time in saunas.

Good luck dude.

 

i had a flashback at a show when i was blinded by a bright white light for a good 15 seconds. During this time I had no idea what was going on, all I could think about was if someone was going to help me. I think that was caused by oxygen loss but, I dunno.

 

i had a flashback only once when i was taking a shit. i was staring at the bathroom wall when all of a sudden the tiles seemed to be shifting or something, then spots of dirt or whatever on the wall started shooting across the room. it was kind of cool but freaky at the same time because it obviously caught me off guard.

 

You may consider laying of the acid,...for good. You shouldn't be having intense "flashbacks" like that. LSD is a powerful drug, it does not affect everyone the same. It's not for everyone.

 

In my opinion if you're not ready to die you shouldn't take acid. I think it's every responsible tripper's duty to inform their friends, before they take acid, that it can be literally like dying. If they are not ready, have an immature attitude towards death, or in general do not handle powerful, life-changing emotional situations well, they should just wait. Smoke some weed. Pop some MDMA.

 

Are you talking about the scientologist's method of overcoming mythological drug effects?

 

the idea of not touching acid has been high on my mind since. I feel it's be a shame seeing as I've enjoyed it immensly a few times after that. Even that nightmare of a trip left me with so much to think about... I can't help but think of acid as an amazing (if volatile) tool to explore my existance.

Im thinking the intensity of the flashback likely had something to do with how traumatizing the experience itself was as well as the acid. I don't think I'm willing to give up just yet

My plan is to five myself more time to ponder, give it another go andnthem give it some more time. I'm prepared to give it up if I have to. I'm just not satisfied I have to yet

 

sounds like one of snocbor's iggy: conspiracy threads

 

I'll turn you all in to good citizens... You'll see!!

 

Are you telling me to get out of the kitchen?

Fortunately my girlfriend ensured I was well informed of the potential for a bad, bad trip. The death wasn't really an issue for me... I came away feeling shaken but positive and without resent for acid nor Louise. The weeks following were filled with a refreshing perspective on my life and future =)

My issue is with the intensity of the flashback. It sounds like it's pretty atypical - but I need to carefully consider if I want to test whether it's atypical for me too.

I'd like to say I coped with the trip pretty well... But this flashback may be evidence to the contrary =( I certainly feel I took acid as prepared as I could be...

 

I know exactly what you mean about the thought loop. It used to happen to me pretty regularly when I would get severely stoned. It's happened to me a couple of times sober, but not nearly with the same intensity, duration, etc. What it really is is a panic attack. I agree to some extent with Mr. Writer in that you should try to accept some of the things that are happening in your thought loop. For a while, I was stuck on death, some sexual issues, etc., and I still think about those things, but they don't really bother me anymore so I don't panic and get stuck in that horrendous thought-loop thing. I would definitely cut way back on the weed, and if you do smoke, smoke only a hit or two. I would also avoid psychedelics for a while (if not permanently) until you can come to terms with some of the fears.

Please PM me if you want to talk about this more. I know how painful this kind of psychological trauma can be, and I've been there and made it through with some success and I'd love to help if I could.

 

Ya I agree with this. In fact, after my first LSD trip everyone I talked to about it I straight up told them "dont take lsd until you are ready to die"

 

Dude I would, but I think I need to get to 100 posts first. That'll take a while at this rate

Feel free to email me - I'd love to chat about it: esapersona@gmail.com