I feel like there is a pattern forming.

thanks.
I suppose that is a more delightful way to look at things.

 

yeah i know what you mean by seeing the eyes as a gateway to the soul...but i'm kinda opposite: i want to see my soul. sometimes i just stare at my eyes in the mirror, thinking about the person i am, and where i am going in my life.

i'm sorry about your experiences with abandonment...some people can't handle being exposed to other people's emotions very well. but that's immature boys for you.

 

there has to be more the the story though right?

 

I wanna hear some of your secrets, preferably dirty...

 

haha

 

Wow. Now that's really weird.
Just be careful, ok?

 

Well, I'm also afraid of being hugged from like the side because I have this like huge feeling that whenever then pull their hands back that they will like grase my tummy and then their nails will turn into like claws and they will rip me apart.
Yes I realize thats crazy.

 

Oh I will.
Don't you worry hun.

 

wow, to many horror movies hun. Are you afraid of a lot of people?

 

do you really think peoples hands will turn to claws or do you just not want them touching any possible areas you consider fat or something

 

Yeah, keep your crazies to yourself most often than not. I have the same problem (LSD).

 

oh no, its a fear of being torn apart.

 

i've gotta disagree, i think you should be able to share your deep or bizarre thoughts with people you care about. if they can't handle it, then they probably aren't the people to be hanging around anyway.

regardless, i don't think anything you're shared so far is that weird..

 

yep i agree, you should put sum of these thoughts to good use, write a horror novel, seriously though a lot of people thought Stephen King was crazy to because he had sum crazy thoughts and dreams.

 

lol, I'm not writing at horror novel at the moment, but maybe one day. Right now I'm just working on making a just normal crazy story.

 

Crazy can lead to murder, add those two together and you will have an awsome story...

 

tell me your secrets but i wont run away ill only give u a good answer of why they prob did

 

Maybe the reason they leave you has nothing to do with your "crazies" and has more to do with the (type of) guys you are picking to hang out with.

 

sounds like you have had some painfull experiences (emotional and physical maybe?) in the past. You have to face your fears before you get over them and I know it's hard to ask for help but maybe you need to sit and talk about this to someone before it gets worse. We all love you and do not want to see you hurt or anyone else for that matter.

 

I think the faers are just naturally there because I've never really looked people in the eyes for as long as i remember. I saw it as rude because I didn't want to look at the souls of people because it's none of my business and the claw fear has been there sense I've seen the movie IT when I was like 10.