Hello all, I am a 19 years old male college student. I've been doing weed since 2 years and I used to smoke only once or twice a month. This year when I came to college, I saw people selling mdma and other drugs. I've heard about mdma alot but never tried that before, so I decided to try it just once just to check how its like. I got my first two pills for 15$ and ate them when I was in a club. The first pill hit me around after 45 mins, and after 2 hours I took my second pill too. I rolled really good. I was clenching my jaw like mad and I was also kinda hyped up with full of energy and confidence. That day overed and I did not have a bad comedown. The next day I was feeling alright, but i kept thinking that I should give it a try once more. So 3 days later, I took 2 pills again and rolled good again. My lack of experience and stupidity made me really blind from the side effects, and I took 3 pills again after 4 days. That week I was so depressed and I broke up with my gf, and I kept thinking what the hell is my life's purpose. I ended up thinking that life has no meaning or fun and started thinking about doing suicide and finish this boring life. Thanks to my friends,who I hang out with, they saw there was some thing wrong with me. They started forcing me doing activities with them but I tried to cut them as much as possible. A week later i Popped 3 pills again and rolled good and ended up doing 3 pills again 2 days later. I was on edges of depression from that time. Then I checked those forums and read people's stories and I realized what I am doing with myself. I decided to quit taking pills and even weed. On the first week, I seriously don't know how I stopped myself from doing them, I was having no fun in anything at all and kept thinking about taking pills. Then the next week, same story happend but I didnt touch mdma or weed. Finally when the third week started I calmed down alot and finally dropped out from depression. I started playing sports and going out with friends. So its been 4 weeks now and I havent done any mdma and I am feeling damn good and I have no feeling or urge to do that. Thanks god that I didnt do suicide or any other stupid thing. So here I want to ask that should I just quit mdma, weed etc, and never take them again. Or It was my mistake/my tolerance which led me there, or it was just addiction? I would be waiting for answers from you guys, and after that I would decide if I am going to do mdma again or not. Thanks for your time.
I wouldnt suggest that you quit taking them (especially weed) neither chemicals have an addiction aspect to them, tolerance and addiction mean two very different things. Addiction is when your body becomes dependant on that chemical, and tolerance occurs when your bodys reaction to the drug decreases so you need to take more to feel the same effects. Your really not going to feel great if you go on an MDMA binge, take one-two rolls (if you cant roll amazingly off of one, than search around for other rolls eventually you'll find good ones) and spread out your rolls at least one week apart to get a good roll each time (ide reccomend taking rarely like at least spread apart by a month or two for teh best experience) When you take multiple doses in a short duration of time like 7 rolls in a week timeframe, will drain you and probably make you very depressed because of the serotonin depletion. Which makes sense that after waiting a few weeks you feel so much better. Learn to take in moderation, it's not worth half-rolling dropping multiple days in a row its so much more worthwhile being something used once in a while.
MDMA every now and then is not bad, but every day it is if every day you take a pill that makes your brain flush all of it's serotonin, the chemical that makes you happy, you never have no time to recharge doing it all the time takes away the magic anyway.
Thanks for replies mate. I got one more question though. What should i do/eat/drink to fill the amount of serotonins that I have lost faster?
lol so you wanna keep on doing it?, ok, in order to keep your serotonin levels inside a normal range, i'd recommend you to DO NOT TAKE ANY FUCKING MDMA.
Just dont make it something you do a lot and everything will be fine.Like what you were doing was dumb but not all your fault you did not know moderation is key.
MDMA is ok like.... 4 times a year at most. Ideally once a year. I think of it as MDMA holiday, like christmas or easter or something, just once a year. Wait till a really good event comes your way, rave or whatever, I like being in public and dancing. Then make that MDMA holiday.
fuck mdma addiction. you gotta stay in control, dont let the drug control u! if i ever try it, im doing it once for that year, then if i decide to try it again its going to b after another year.
there's much better drugs out there. repetitive mdma use constantly punctures the wall between conciousness and unconciousnessis. question is where will you be when the party's over because i'm telling you now, when the magic starts to fade you'll be fuckin lost. steer well clear.
^^I dont know about all that only doing it on holidays or a couple times a year wont do much.If you cant handle doing that stop and never do it again.Yes there are better drugs to do though.
Ever hear of the Responsible Drug User's Oath? I am in complete agreement with it. Check it out: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Responsible_Drug_User's_Oath Also, the morning after rolling, drink lots of OJ and water, eat bananas and other fruits, and (as much as you might not want to) go out in the sunshine, if there is any (might be cloudy). When I was 16 or 17 I was diagnosed with a disorder called SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) which causes the brain, during winter months, to not produce serotonin as effectively as it should. This is mainly from the lack of sunshine during the winter months. They had me on some medications for awhile (I was depressed, suicidal, etc), but the thing that helped the most was getting outside and getting some sunshine. I first started rolling when I worked at an amusement park, so I was in the sun all day everyday. I would feel e-tarded for maybe the first few hours, but after some OJ and some sun, felt fine by lunch. Hope this helps!
The key is to only take one at a time (which is all you need if it's good) and do it no more than once a month. And to replenish your serotonin, they say to take 5-HTP which is found in health stores. You should take some before and after ideally. Vitamin C is also good, try drinking a lot of orange juice. Also beware of pills sold as MDMA that are really speed. That has happened to me and I felt WAY more depressed afterward than I do with E.
