I came across this forum after typing "finding myself" in google, I feel like that is what I want to do right now, I want to be truely happy with who I am, and to be able to accept the world, and to give love to the world. I found myself writing this a few hours ago... I dont want to be enslaved by society, I want to do what I want when I want without having to consider what is acceptable by others. We beleive ourselves to be free, because were not in prison or being physically held somewhere However the whole world is pyscologically imprisoned. It is a method of survival, or learnt at a young age, and is engraned into our thought processes. It is tragic that we all feel we must consume to feel happy, and to not love our families fully, and to not feel we have the right to love ourselves for who we are. We stop ourselves from doing simple things in life that we want to, such as talking to a girl, or going for a walk, theres something controlling us, internally or externally from doing these things. Why should i put up with bad weather? Why shouldnt I move to a nicer country? This World is all ours equally. I shouldnt be forced not to go to another plot of land that happens to have a certain name becuase a person named it differently 500 or so years ago. Its a peice of earth, I want the world to love each other, I dont want people to hate each other becuase of there class or there race. Its disgusting. I beleive many problems in the world, not just war, or poverty, but the biggest problem of all, THE HUMAN RACES HAPPINESS can be solved. We could have heaven on earth by doing just one thing. When we bring up our children, we appreciate that they are clay, and that the environment around them shapes there personality and there happiness completely. A divorce, or saying negative things towards a child when they are younger, or not showing them love, children carry these things for the rest of there lives, because they are clay, we spend all our enegry burying the past, that we dont have enough energy left to live. Giving all children the love they deserve, and showing them nothing negative, this would create a heaven on earth. There would be no hate in the world becuase no one would know what hate was. No one would live in a prison becuase they feel fully accepted by the world and have nothing but love to give and to receive from others. God gave us a chance for a heaven on earth, the earth was a beautiful place, at night, there was no light pollution on earth and we could see the stars so clearly. There were trees's everywhere, which made us alot more peaceful and appreciative of the world we live in. The problem is, the world is feels disgusting now, that in turn it makes us appreciate it less and less, and when we appreciate it less and less, we make it even more disgusting, becuase we care less and less about it and about those around us. Every human knows this in there hearts, everyone feels the control, and the hatred, everyone knows the world today has turned out to be a depressing horror movie, yet everyone is too in denial to fully realise it and do anything about it. When I am out in society I see the depressed faces and the eyes facing the floor, I see the anger and the sorrow in everyones faces. I try and stay positive, and I try and not let the past effect me, but it can be difficult when everyone else in the world reminds me of how i used to be, I need to find some positive people to be around it seems. I have learnt something from writing this, I need to find people who have love to give, and who are willing to let me give my love to them. How do I find such people? I guess I need to go out into the world and find them, I feel im stuck with negative people right now becuase I attracted negative people in the past becuase I was too Im glad im going uni next year, it gives me a chance to attract some positive people which allow me to be happy, and i allow them to be.
hello i know how you feel. i'm sick of negativity in general. it's everywhere and sometimes it just makes you want to escape.
Hello Pref Welcome to the forums . good to have you here . PEACE. p.s. great intro . Im from Dublin myself .
