im not going to school tomorrow

i dont care about the test in alg. next wk... that i need to go to class for.

i have my husband CONSTANTLY bugging me about going the right thing for my school (which is my privage..sp.- he does not require that i go there, altho i like it)- AND, how i need to work.. NOT drink, wake up at a certain time, do things around here...

well, im STRESSED...

like i said. im SO far from perfect. im very un-perfect. and i call tonight the un-perfect night. yay.

 

I'm not either.

 

Un-perfect because I'm not doing what I should be, yet its pure bliss.

 

Well then you can come visit me.

 

I think I'll take the day off too.
I'm getting that mid semester lack of energy thing going on.

 

i'm not going to school either..oh wait damnit, i'm not in school anymore but i do haveta go to work tomorrow :/ and intervel I'm sorry yer so stressed out..if i was there, i'd massage yer shoulders and let you vent to me anyway, smile and remember tomorrow is a new day..and hopefully a better one

 

Let's all have a HipForum's skip school day!!!

 

this has encouraged me to leave work to go home...

 

hahahah damn double post

 

haha well guess what? i am fucked.

 

what happened...

 

well, i dont have my phone. i just got home. i have no idea where i was. and im pretty sure dan is VERY, VERY mad at me...however, i cant call him.

 

you dont know where you were..whats the last thing you rememeber..

 

i have no idea. i really dont.

 

all i wanna do is talk to my husband and i cant.

 

Can you use a neighbors phone or a pay phone somewhere..

 

Gotta admit, if the person I loved vanished for the night and I couldn't get ahold of her to make sure she was alright, and then she came home with no memory of where she'd been, I'd be upset. I'd take her to a hospital (especially if she had a history of substance abuse) and check her in myself, and make sure she got the care she needed. This isn't something to just let lie. Alarm bells should be going off. This is a serious problem that needs to be addressed.

I'm really starting to worry about you. Not just you, but those around you as well. Do you know what kind of effect your affliction has on those who love you? Do you know what happens to kids with alcoholic parents? You might think you are only harming yourself, and perhaps, for some reason, you can't love or respect yourself enough to take some action, but do you love those who love you enough to do what it takes to keep from harming them?

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE GET SOME HELP!!!!!!!

I am the child of an alcoholic parent. My childhood was a nightmare and I'm still dealing problems which stem from my upbringing to this day (thirty years later). I know other children and family members of alcoholics or people with substance addictions, and they are similarly damaged. If you can't get help for your own sake, then get help for the the sake of those who love you. Look around online and you can find out what kind of damage you are unwittingly doing to those you love. Just try a google search under "alcoholic parent" or "alcoholic spouse" or something along those lines.

I know that I'm not likely to influence you in this. Only you can make the decision to treat your disease. I only hope you do it soon. You don't know what harm you are doing to those who love you. I only know you as a part of this online community, but it still pains me every time I read another one of these threads. I care enough to hurt for you. I want you to be well, and I'm helpless to do anything about it. I'm sorry.