for some time now I've had the problem of having trouble figuring out my sexuality. ever since i was in my early teens I' have had a bit of interest in men. mostly I've just though of this as being bi-curious which is what it might be. i still have attractions to women as i have a girlfriend right now. she is my first real girlfriend and thing are going quite well. one problem i have though is cumming during our sexual experiences. it almost feels like I'm not pleasured enough or turned on enough and i either lose the erection or manage to cum after a lot of effort. when i have came I'm usually fantasizing about something not happening, usually of some lesbian fantasy between women i know, ect. sometimes i find myself thinking that I'm just really deep in the closet and try to think about men while masturbating or look at gay porn. I can get off to it but it feels guilty and wrong. usually my regular straight porn works better and leaves me feeling content. recently I have lost a lot of sexual drive because of my lack of confidence in anything. I started smoking more weed and it's really getting to me. a lot of the time when I'm high is when I start to feel the feelings of paranoia about being gay or bi. i don't know how to react. i really love my girlfriend and want to keep dating her so i will but i keep questioning myself and want answers.
As you already know, weed won't help. Some guts, though, would do the trick nicely. So, stop worrying about being 'gay' and explore your sexuality, get to know yourself and enjoy your own sexuality, whatever it may turn out to be. Beating yourself in the head just because you may be gay, and that does not seem to be to your liking is both counterproductive and destructive. KD
well I'm no longer so sure that I'm not attracted to women cause' my relationship with my girlfriend is reaching a whole new level. we really are in love and I'm beginning to get more pleasure from our sex. I will continue to explore my feelings for men and be accepting to the idea i may be bisexual
