first a story and then the question... one night there was nothing really to do so i decided to take a light acid trip. i ate one tab and sat in my closet all night and meditated. something was different about this trip, i think i didn't smoke weed or only smoked a tiny bit. this felt like a true "classic" psychedelic trip. at the time usually with closed eyes visuals i got a lot of geometric fractal patterns, but this was pure flowing kylodepscopic eye candy, beautiful flowing colors swirling around in array of patterns, i was in total awe at what was going on behind my eyes. also in this period of time i was pretty much an atheist, i had no real idea whether there was a god or an afterlife. i remember being in a really good mood i began to say to myself, "what if there is no god, no afterlife, no purpose to life, what if we just die and thats it", then all of a sudden, like someone just flipped the switch to the biggest light bulb ever, i said to myself, "or what if there is a god, what if hes this big complex thing that we cant even conceive, what if there are billions of dimensions, made from infinite amounts of energy, and everything is one, just one giant system and god is the name for it all?" and damn was i on the money, it was like somebody just whispered the biggest truth of all time into my concious. another defining moment that changed my life. now heres the question. after that my mind was racing, my soul was ready to be set free! it felt like something was going to change, like a breakthrough basically, and then i was stopped. something blocked me, when i closed my eyes, there were all these Xs and blinking lights, and the sound of when you try to choose something you cant choose in super mario was going off a rapid fire. then access denied flashed across my eyelids. i was actually blocked from experienceing a certain state of conciousness. i thought at the time that maybe i had not taken enough acid and the acid was blocking me from experienceing a heavier trip. but i think now it had something to deal with a spirtiual breakthrough that i was not yet ready for. has this ever happend to you? have you been blocked from an experience?
Never happened to me, but i've only done acid a handful of times. Try meditating to open your chakras, and after 2 weeks, try to replicate the same trip you described above.
I haven't been blocked off as such, but i have stopped gaining anything from acid. dunno how to explain it but i need to take time out and grow mentally and spiritually before i can get anything new from acid. just a feeling i have if you know what i mean.
Well it could have been nothing. Just typical mental detritus stuff or the molecule being a trickster however you wanna interpret it. Sometimes revelations also span multiple trips to be understood, that's why i recommend no marijuana (in case you get one of those multi-trip messages, wouldn't want to destroy tape 3 of 5 of your cosmic lesson cuz you're high ) I personally think it's your altered consciousness telling you "Where well the hell did you expect me to take you? This is it buddy. This is life. You can live it in darkness or light, your choice, no one cares but you. You wanna live it in light? Fine, go nuts. What the hell are you looking at me for?" Now that you know how you want to see the universe, just do it. The end. Please hang up. The number you have dialed is no longer in service. Try in a year or something
wow, that's crazy. I mean, I've never had actual words flash like access denied but I definitely know what it's like to be blocked from the incredible release of energy/body high/ultimate satisfaction - I only got that once but I know I could again; all the times that happened to me it was because the environment wasn't quite right and plus I hadn't smoked weed with it. For me, though, it was like trying to get the patterns in full focus to get the full effect and let the trip play out fully, but they kept going out of focus and I would feel really close to sober. That is a very interesting experience though. Based on my experience I would say smoke weed while coming up because it helps it take its full effect so you get those types of incredible realizations, but idk. Were you listening to any music when this happened?
well i have come much farther on my spiritual journey since that has happend. i wasn't listening to music and i was barely high and it was such a low dose, i had a lot of control over my mind. i was trying to push my mind farther then it was ready for i guess. as of right now i havent tripped in awhile, it feels like this is a new chapter in my life, shrooms just came back in to town, and im ready to learn again!
it's happened to me as well. one time in my basement i ate 3 hits, i was chillin' in my basement most of the time. i turned on some music and just layed on my couch. i guess i ended up falling asleep...or almost asleep...such vivid hallucinations like wow... one of my more memorable trips. my hallucination was me driving a car... and *boom* shit exploded everywhere and it was the most frightening, alarming sound i've probably ever heard...i woke up. i had been in an accident, so to speak hahah. i woke up, paced for a while and slept it off...
