Take up a hobby, bang girls, pick out everything that was wrong with her and realise she actually sucked
i suggest you get yourself a fat bag of some heroin and blast all that shit until the pain goes away..
I would disagree with smoking weed while highly emotional, that just serves to numb your emotions, which is not healthy. i would suggest feeling your feelings by just being with them and observing the sensations that arise while you are feeling them. I can emphathize with you, I just went to a 10-day meditation retreat, where I realized that I had very deep and complex feelings towards my girlfriend. I actually felt that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, and to raise children with her. After the retreat ended, and when I told her about my feelings for her, she basically said that she couldn't return those feelings, and that our relationship is highly superficial. She even went as far to question the feelings I had for her, saying that she could not see how someone could possibly love her. She also still has feelings for her ex, which I am well aware of. She is quite a cynical and pessimistic person, and lives in fear a lot of the time, so I am beginning to question whether she was right for me, in the first place. We had quite a bit of fun, and I don't regret it. In conclusion, I would highly recommend being with your feelings instead of running away from them by using intoxicants. Keep in mind the importance of the Law of impermanence, everything arises to pass away, and there is no sense grieving over something which apparently won't last forever. A saying, which I carry with me always - This too shall pass.
Shitting in her pillow sounds like fun too. Find friends to go do shit with, you will forget all about her.
Good to know that I could gne of service. In my experience, it is never good to hide from ones emotions through substance. I find this kind of mentality breeds alcoholism and drug dependancy, and is not conducive to a healthy emotional body. You will find that any emotion is usually conducive to a sensation on the body, and these sensation are either pleasant or unpleasant. The habit pattern and conditioning of the mind is to generate hatred and aversion towards unpleasant sensations, and craving d towards the pleasant ones. In light of the law of impermanence, all these sensations and emotions are bound to pass away, and you should treat them with equanimity, instead of polluting your mind with unhealthy thoughts. This is what I learned in my meditation retreat, at it was all very interesting. You can learn more about it, if you wish, by googling "vipassana" which ia the name of the technique.
definitely! with alchohol, it makes some people so much more violent etc. weed just chills you, no harm to anyone lol.
are you kidding? if weed didnt make anyone violent and every user was chill and harmless... you still think it would be illegul?