How about being single for 19 years, then finally getting a relationship, only to have it fall short and stop after several months because of reasons you felt like you could have easily changed? And now back to being single and 20yrs old. Bah, I mean, I guess since I was single throughout all high school and a little bit after that I was able to develop myself and create my identity. I was able to focus on my friends and most of all, my musical skills so I can eventually make music my career in life. But now what? I've already made my identity, I know who I am and what I want to do. But that doesn't make me feel fulfilled... I thought I did everything for myself, but after experiencing a little bit of a relationship, I've realized that I feel better when doing it for someone else. Sure I have close friends that I hold dear to me, but they can't fill that little spot that being in real relationship with someone will fill. Sometimes I wonder if I will find "mutual love", considering I don't think I've ever been "in love" with someone. Like... Someone who would actually cry for me and be effected if I were to be gone (besides my immediate family)(and not that I would want people to dwell on me though). Oh well... Thankfully I'm a natural optimist, though lately my optimism doesn't shine through all the time...
I understand how you're feeling, every relationship i had, no one was in love with me, its hard to find being in love because the feeling doesnt go away once it hits its hard for guys your age i think through 18-21 theyre confused on what they want..mutual love or serious love. they want a serious but they want to have fun too
I've been single for a majority of my life. The longest relationship I've had was 6 months. Mostly I feel that no one can live up to my expectations and ideas that I have about what a relationship should be like. Basically, I've yet to find the right person that likes me as much as I like them and vice versa.
I think true love is pretty rare. People tend to expect it to just happen after dating for awhile, but I don't think it happens that way. When it does occur, it's really special.