I can't believe I'm doing this

I'm drinking mouthwash for the alcohol content. This is the first time I've done this. I've taken three shots and feel incredibly tipsy though slightly nauseous. Desperate, yes. Pathetic, yes. Strangely I don't care... I'll probably care in a few hours when I'm puking my guts out.

 

Idiot.


Period.

 

I know. That's the point. I have serious problems that I'd rather not deal with. Trust me, I feel like shit for doing this but I feel drunk at the same time...

 

Why, though?!
Alcohol's a nasty drug, through and through.
Not that I'd advocate any, but there's many alternatives to alcohol as a means to masking your problems. It makes you feel worse (physically and mentally) when it wears off, causes a lot of physical damage and above all - is a physically addictive drug. Seeing as you're obviously using it to block out mental issues, it sounds like you've got a psychological dependency on it as opposed to an addiction (as the word is defined); but I suppose it's only a matter of time before your body gets so used to having alcohol in it's system.. end result, inevitably - alcoholism.. and as someone with friends who consider themselves alcoholics, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
The thing is.. If you felt like shit for doing it, surely you'd keep such a filthy little secret to yourself instead of sharing it with the World, y'no?!
Mind you, I suppose mouthwash beats aftershave..

 

your desperate for an escape out of your reality. whats the REAL reason that you feel you need to get fucked up to the extreme that you grab the mouthwash, im sure theres other things that youve done to get fucked up that ppl would think is silly. you need to go to the root of the reason. or do you already know?

 

..and I'm not JUDGING you for the root problem, either!!!
Everyone has problems; some have such horrific past experiences that drink is the only way they CAN deal.. it truly does BLOCK OUT functioning thought as opposed to enhancing it (as many drugs do).
Even though identifying the problem and trying to get through it on a functional basis would be advisable and beneficial.

 

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my post was not meant to judge, just to simply that theres probably reason that he is doing that, and that if he knows why then he should probably get some help. or if he doesnt then to try to find out what the root of the problem is.

thats not judging...to judge would be to call him some names, and make fun of him. not to encourage help.

 

It's cool I take no offense. I have unbearable depression. I suspect I'm bipolar but really don't want to take psychiatric medication... I know, as if drinking mouthwash is so much better... but I'm a habitual drug user (mostly marijuana and alcohol) and the one time I tried mood stabilizers they had a really negative effect on my cannabis highs... made my heart pound and race every time I smoked... and as a hippie pot would be a really really really hard thing to give up in favor of psych meds... I don't know. I'm only 18! It's really hard!

 

yeah, i have been on mood stabilizers before, they have never helped me at all. im not bipolar, but i have my issues. your a girl arent you? i just now noticed the avatar. but with bipolar disorder, you might want to try something else, than mood stabilizers. If they just put you on that by itself, they usually dont help much, theyre usually made to work with another drug. do some research on what you think you might have and research on the meds available and all the side effects. im going to PM you a helpful site.

 

thanks =] update on the mouthwash, I feel horrible now! drunk,but damn I feel bad, bet Ill puke any second

 

maybe not, but who knows
and yeah, I'm a girl

 

Erm, wtf?!
MY post was a follow on to my previous post..

..NOT an analysis of YOURS!!!!!

 

oh, it was right after mine, so i guess i just assumed. i didnt know why you thought i was being judgemental! sorry!

 

Hahaha.
No worries.

 

Yeah, everytime is was really smashed, i could think, well deffo think functional thoughts... unable to get up, and puking like shit i still know im drunk as hell

 

You moron, I can't stand people like you that post nonsense for other peoples sympathy and attention. Go to an AA meeting where people can call you on your bullshit. Don't "ask for help" this way. Go to someone who has sobriety and ask, "Hey, I got problems, help me please!" Trust me, you will find no shortage, that is if you really want the help.