so who all else here is schizo/bipolar?

just out of curiosity...


personally, i've been diagnosed with marijuana induced psychosis, bipolar disorder, and schizophrenia.

i'm honestly not sure what my official diagnosis is right now but based on what i deal with, i'd gander i'm either bipolar or schizophrenic.

 

I have acid induced bi-polar...

 

well i'm so crazy i throw fecal waste at public officials on fridays.

 

i might be Bipolar , Sciso , M. P.D

 

mmm labels. Anyone have ideas of reference? you know...sitting around and you hear someone say something and think it relates to you? well I think that's the corner stone of drug induced psychosis....it also helps to have underlying conflicts of interest/desires so that you think they are referring to those issues...

and also the conflict can generate a sense of shame and a feeling that you have SOMETHING to hide and so the people around you have something to know

a good example of conflict is between peers, parental figures and your own self image.

 

What I really like is the fact that MOST people who take drugs understand ideas of reference and for the most part can operate in it successfully...but you can't....but really you can, they just dont want you too.

Soo...I'd say I'm paranoid scizophrenic with delusions of granduer and social phobia

 

So much for admitting it....what do we do about it besides medicate and hide the truth. the daily causes for daily bipolarness are so clear. for me it seems so real. like there are so many people looking at me funny.

It's so stupid but I've really just been feeling like driving far away and voluntarilly committing myself to a psych ward or something more comforting. But sometimes really I hugely feel that althought I was born in New York that my dad's origins in Iowa is my real home and I must return. Sometimes I feel like there's no one in the town for me. Not even my friends. Who I Do have great times with.

I am definitely bipolar....but schizophrenic. Not yet. I definitely have some sort of dissociative disorder very much like depersonalization. I feel like there's so many eyes when I guess I admit I need some solitary. I don't understand why I feel overwhelmed with looks so I feel completely detached from myself.

"Goin' where the wind don't blow so strange,
Maybe off on some high cold mountain chain." - Grateful Dead

 

bipolar seems to have psychotic elements when you hit the peak and troughs...the highs of having indepth perception...and the temptation to work within that. And the lows, the need to remove yourself from life and the brains need to compensate with delusions

I love the analogy for bipolar of riding the tiger...the further you lean forward the greater the rush...but you can fall off and get mauled.

 

I'm Schizo, Depressed, Bi-Polar, Anxious, however I flat-out refuse any sort of 'medication' for it. I don't see why I should suppress who I really am, just to 'be normal'. Think of it. The government is scared of the way you might think! I see schizophrenia as a leak of the subconcious into the concious. Depression, well, it might just have been a bad childhood and/or suppressed emotions, but you learn to deal with it.

Anyway, when I'm REALLY high on dope, and alone (ive never been that high and with people) I always hear voices,screams, whispers, but I can never tell what they're saying, it's actually annoying. When I hear it, I want it to happen again and again so I can understand it, but at the same time, whenever I hear it, I get so terrified I could shizzit a brick.

 

that reminds me of a joke a once heard..
theres a guy walking around in the woods on shrooms, and he hears this flower talking to him, so he bends down and asks the flower what it said
and again he can't understand, and he keeps asking until finally he's like

maybe if i wasn't on mushrooms i would be able to understand you

ironically, if he wasn't on mushrooms he probably would have never heard the voice

i guess the moral of this joke is to trust in your heart

 

I don't really get why people wouldn't want more...I don't believe the drugs are the answer..for most people its what messes them up in the first place.

What I don't like is the blamming of the government, big pharmecuetical companies. They sell products when there is a market, and people are miserable and messed up so theres a market for that. Common sense should make it easy to see that you can work through your issues...but if they turn to drugs straight away then they probably don't have common sense and maybe they need a drug to give it to them

 

lol, common sense in a bottle! buy yours today! do you find yourself outwitted? saying phrases like "common sense ins't common"? doing stupid things? buy your common sense from any local drugstore near you!

 

oops, i forgot to quote lostminty... that just ruined my witty spam that wasnt spam...

 

crap... i forgot again sooo, ya there it is

 

lolz, Well I finally got a appointment for the voices in my head, saw a counsler last thursday.

 

im glad u appreciated it..but i wonder how, i wonder why...

 

I'm bipolar and my manic phases are hell. Right now I'm in a mixed state which is the worst. I can't sleep. I sleep 6 hours every other day (or 2!). I didn't indulge in anything fun when I was younger and now I regret it because I'm miserable now and don't have anything to show for it. Mine is inherited. The last suicide attempt was Dec 05. I've had shock treatments...excuse me, the euphemism is now "ECT." That left my memory shattered and I lost about 18 months. My manic phases have taken me to NYC, Miami and Key West, Chicago, the Bahamas, and Puerto Vallarta. Unfortunately, I don't remember much about Mexico except a really muscular bodybuilder and me giving him 200 pesos. Don't ask...I won't tell.

 

When the doctors called me crazy, i refused medication. Now that i'm not, i want anything they'd give me.

 

i'm so much fucked up shit i don't even know anymore.