For the past 10 years of my life, I've been suffering from severe Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder as well as Anxiety. For a few years, everything started to get better and I could even smoke ganja & enjoy it and I rarely felt depressed. But since my mother was diagnosed with pancreatic and liver cancer, things haven't been the same. I can't seem to enjoy life, even though I have amazing friends and an amazing love in my life. I feel like I'd be better off dead. I'm overwhelmed with guilt.I need help. I'm willing to try almost anything.
I'm down with the obsessive part - man - Something will start preying on my mind and there's not stopping it - only time or trauma. Your lucky to have a great love. You need to take your loved one and friends and use them. They will feel like they have helped you and you can recover back to a better place. Talk to them - if they love you, they'll understand. See a doctor - I take zoloft and they are a real help and at 18 the doctor probably will prescribe them to you. There's stuff to be done and you can't do it alone. You've got to get past this guilt thing - it will kill you - I doubt if you deserve to carry that load - Darkness comes before light. Peace & Love - Dudley
I had alot of trouble with anxiety myself, alot of issues in my life seemed to be causing them but really I find now later , past the issues etc etc that it was only my misunderstanding that was hurting me. The pain of others hurts us because of our high levels of empathy, it is a good thing, try to see good things in the bad... however hard it may be cancer is a fuck Hopefully someday soon we can conquer this horrible affliction. Peace be with you.
Thank you, Sunchild77 and Ddoright. I can only hope that someday there's a cure for cancer...as well as other terminal illnesses such as AIDS. I've taken zoloft before...at first it helped, but eventually I started to feel empty and numb to the point where I felt "trapped" in life. I almost became suicidal. Also, when I first started smoking ganja regularly I felt alot better. But one day, I had a panic attack after smoking and I haven't been able to enjoy it since. I've been using St. John's wort for two years(but not when I was smoking regularly or taking Zoloft) and I find that it helps me more than anything, but it's not enough. I feel like I need more, and lately it hasn't been helping me as much as it usually does. I used to find beauty in so many things...in life as well as death. The world in general was just so beautiful to me but nowadays, all I feel is fear and pain. I feel like the only way to see beauty again is to rid myself of these negative feelings. I just want my life back...I want to feel alive again.
Sometimes smoking ganja increases the level of anxiety, and this might become worse if the smoker gets some kinda dependent on it. The thing is, the psychological aspect and the body don't react no more to the effect of the smoke, both may become numb of any reaction. Maybe you should try other things that can exercise both mind and body. And you can do it with your friends and loved ones. The support you get from them should be great source of hope and strength. _________________ Online Health Insurance Quotes
You should spend lots of time outdoors communing with nature, gardening, basically getting grounded. And if you want to do pot, try eating it instead. It will react differently than smoking it does, and actually is more relaxing that way.
I sympathize with you for your mom's health condition. Family issues, especially related to health, can be very difficult to cope with because they are out of your control. Professional help may be the best option for you. It takes a lot of courage to write a post like this and that leaves me feeling that you still have the strength and desire to move towards a more peaceful and happy mind. There are many good resources to help you better understand your feelings and provide excellent tools to assist with coping with hardships. I have recently created a blog titled "Hey, I Want To Be Happy Too!" and I believe you could get some useful info from. You can find the link on my profile. I have found that the best place to start is your own mind. Transforming your thoughts and changing your perspective. I understand that you are faced with a very difficult and comlex issue and nothing can take away the facts. But, maintaining a positive attitude and perspective just may be the inspiration and hope that your loved ones need. My heart goes out to you and I wish the best outcome for you and your family.
on top of the st. john wort, might i also recommend taking 5-HTP; this combination has helped me in the past.
Dear AutumnsMoonChild: I think if you'll take stock of your life you'll realize that there are so many more positives in your life than negatives. (from what you mentioned). Your mother's cancer is something completely out of your control. All you can do is be there for her to support and help her thru it. Like wilkersonjustin said it took courage for you to reach out here for help. That tells me that you are not prepared to give up and want to turn things around. Seek out a professional to talk to about your OCD and anxiety. Somebody local there in Canada that you can go talk to. Ask your friends and family for their support and continue to support your mom. You'll get thru it - trust me. Hang in there - Bill
At least you know why (it sounds like) you have anxiety for the most part. I've been plagued with it all through my life and can't figure out what the root is! Anxiety is such a mysterious thing sometimes. I'm such a simple guy, so easily satisfied and pretty content with my life... but there's always this stupid underlining tension inside of me I can't get rid of.
ive been fighting severe anxiety for so many years, ive lost track. i just take a klonopin when i feel it coming. and i dont have any attacks. and i can be able to function. but then again, thats my body, so i dont know how yours reacts or what it needs. zoloft in my opinion is the worst. i had suicidal thoughts as one of my side effects.
One thing that has helped me is to alkalize the body by juicing lots of greens and drinking them (with fruit to make it taste better!), by doing this biologically the alkaline minerals like calcium, magnesium which refreshes your nervous system and creates a balance. It does work. Ive had social phobia for years and BDD (Body Dysmorphia) and used to be a hermit/aggorphobic for 6 years, ive come along way and say that its really a conjuction of things that help, definately getting pyschological help in CBT really, really helps and opens up doors and also learning things that work for you. I dont believe in at all in drugs for mental illness tho.
I have severe anxiety along with depression since I was a sophomore in highschool. Unfortunately I'm on medication for it. 30mg of Prozac and Xanax as needed for my panic attacks. For a person that is against taking medication for anxiety, I'm trying to find an alternative natural way of dealing with my anxiety. The problem with me is that when I have an anxiety attack, I throw up and have diarrhea until there's nothing left in me and I still dry heave. Plust the attack doesn't stop, it just has highs and lows but the whole time I'm shaking uncontrollably. I usually just collapse or pass out. Because I have anxiety so severe. My anxiety used to be a fear of highschool, the crowds etc. but it seems that now it has evolved to me being afraid of getting a panic attack. Does anybody else get this severly sick from panic attacks?
after reading this topic i though i would register to share my experience and maybe looking into alternatives to the meds ive been prescribed. First off i suffer from sever anxiety and panic attacks which have lead me upto fainting in public places, this has lead upto me forming agoraphobia (a fear of going into public places), now i have been prescribed Imipramine 75mg and this stuff is nasty - panic attacks make me stuter in public but this medication makes me not even care about replying in public "which is worse?" i am currently getting help through odviously meds and through graded exposure with support nurse but looking for something other than the extreme anti depresant being giving to me since im not exactly depresed and actualy like life apart from the odvious feeling rubbish when stepping outside my house I do eat pretty healthy having the time to enjoy cooking and eating good foods e.g yougurt with fruits sliced into it, my diet has been looked into by a comunity nurse and seems healthy to them but odvously doesnt do it for me apart from allow me to live with this longer ? As for an answer to lizardqueen102's question yes i get them symptoms especially when i know i have to go out - with it getting worse the closer the time comes to going out, i found out myself that i would drink eat and smoke more the closer the time came to going out and with no logical control over this my body was forced with only one solution - once i knew this i started to be able to control it better with not doing these things but instead now i listen to music usualy i know the words to and just sit with headphones on listening to that and maybe at maximum 1 orange juice within and hour period, this seems to have cut back on the throwing up problem - i still get the stomache cramps and needing the loo every 5mins but found this goes away the more i pratice distraction technics. Hope this is helpful to someone and look at it this way dont be afraid to get help since they are only there to advise you and you can turn around and say not to it at anytime - looking forward to hearing somethings that woked for others on things that can take the edge of the anxiety without stopping me from being able to comunicate with another humans
