I have to get fucked up to socialize

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Yeah, me too.

 

I need beer.

 

I had to for years. It still helps.

 

yeah. im trying to work on being loosened up with people without anything, but a few beers or something will really help me break the ice and have a good conversation with others, at other times i just feel really anxious and nervous.

 

Me too. theres only maybe 10 people im social around when im sober. everytime im drunk I meet like 50 new people, but when Im sober I mumble all the time, and am really antisocial.

 

I know exactly what you mean, it's almost a physical feeling of being too "loose" moving around more and overthinking stuff, while after a couple drinks you can just kinda sit back in your chair and talk

 

whether I'm fucked up or not, I'm not that interested in socializing

 

yeah, i've always got this tensed up feeling in my body, and my thoughts just race with negative thoughts about myself that hold me back from talking to anyone. and i really feel like that all the time, about everything just anxious and tense. but wehn i get a few beers in me or something else, im just a breeze. beer or some hydrocodone im giddy and can't wait to socialize.

but other things like xanax, make me feel breezy and im not worried about anything, my negative anxious thoughts are set aside and its all good. im feel floaty and just happy in a way, and i can do things without that anxious thoughts holding me back.

 

yeah man i mumble alot lol.

i feel anti social in the sense that hold myself back cause of anxious thoughts, but im not anti social in the sense that i would really just like to socialize. with girls im interested in maybe i could get some dates and start a relationship with, but im nervous about all the things that go along with it. i just feel if im with a girl im buggin her and i should just stop fooling myself.

or just with somecool dudes to make friends with and chill with later on you know? if im a with a group of guys i know i just feel like a third wheel and i dont really belong.

 

Just be yourself, trust me, if your that fucked off you won't have any problems getting any attention. People will come to you, even if it is just to be entertained...

 

yeah man, ive definantely said/done some dummmb shit, especially on alcohol.

being yourself is the best, i've been kinda just watching how i act you know and analyzing(not negatively), and i notice around every different person i start acting different, im gonna work on that. ive noticed other people try to be the center of attention and shit, that is annoying. they all jump at the first chance to interrupt you and get a word in of their own.

i just gonna be me, and if i got something to say slide it in in a noninterrupting way when the quiet gets there. and not be so anxious when it gets quiet, good chance to think of something to say man.


also, diggin the house sig man.

 

Many people do.
Getting fucked up breaks down barriers.
Broken barriers make for more communication.

 

yeah. i still like to get fucked up man, just dont wanna depend on it to socialize.

i like weed man, mostly, it helps me think about thse things and work on negative shit in my life to become a more chill happy understanding person. people try to say it makes you dumb, but weed helps me realise shit about my life man.

 

really? you mean it?

 

Yeah, babe. Why do you ask?

 

I dunno... I guess I find people who aren't social butterflies kinda interesting. I can be social sometimes, but I'm probably more introverted. I can be a real hermit at times.

 

Nice. I find couch potato women sexy. You know, like Bridget Fonda in Jackie Brown.

When I drink, I usually own the room. I become hyper-charismatic. Not good.

 

Ever since I gave up drinking my social life has been nill. But at least i'm not getting arested and thrown in the drunk tank or fighting. I gave up weed for a time but picked it up again because i was literally not leaving my house, except to go grocery shopping with my mom. All in all i'm alot happier and healthier, been working out for 4 months non stop and i'm eating healthy but it gets lonely sometimes and I wish i could socialize more easily.

 

Thaaaaaaaaaat's my dilemma. :cheers2: I basically went 6 months without talking to anyone after I went on the wagon. I fucking suck.