It seems odd to me how the most personal and private parts of my life are easier to talk about with faceless randoms than with my very few friends, but here we go. I met a girl in an online game some five months ago. The way she composed her words caught me at first, I can't really explain it, but it was beautiful. We started talking and I fell in love. I asked her to be by my side and to love me. She agreed. The problems that I'm having now are many. I trust her completely, let there be no doubt about that, but I don't really have anything to base this on but my own blind hope. I've never heard her voice or seen a picture. Am I wrong for trusting so blindly? I have done everything I can think of to make myself available to her, to share completely and honestly as best I can. I don't know what else to do at this point, I don't want to push her, and I certainly don't want to distrust her, but every day it gets harder to keep faith. Does anybody out there in internet-land have a bit of advice? Ah, and sorry if any of this was vague or wordy or whatever. I'm up well past my usual bed time, just needed to get this off my chest. Thank you very much.
Well do you know where she lives, and talk to her on IM or Phone her or something, you need to know each other more then just in game talking to really be sure you are good for each other. Im not saying you dont really love her...honestly i know you do, u may even be inlove with her. I had an ex a while back, i met on the internet and hooked up with, and after we broke up we ended up at a metal show exactly an hour away from both of us in oppisite directions, and she had her friend say Hi to me in an arrogant way, biggest mistake on getting back together with me. I fell inlove with her freind instantly. Later that night i started talking on myspace to this girl, then we went to the phone, and we both really connected because i was smoking a bong, and shes a pot head her self. Now 3 years later...we are tring to find out if my baby is in her belly. So dont give up hope.
In her own words, Swass, she is scared. She refuses to go any more in depth than that, and gets quite aggitated when I bring it up. I believe she had a rough time growing up, both parents were military and from what I've gathered, her father was... um... not so kind. And DMF, thank you for your words. Yes, I talk with her almost every single day through messenger. We're not completely in tune with each other, which I attribute partly to the inability to express or read tone and inflection in the text-based format, but even so I know that she is the girl of my dreams. Even her flaws delight me, much as I've seen at least. That may be my biggest problem with all of this, there's just so damned much to lose. It's not that I worry about losing her exactly, my biggest fears are that either she'll turn out to be somebody completely other than how she portrays herself, or almost worse, that this will be the extent of our relationship. I suppose I've no choice but just wait and find out, eh?
