well to start this whole thing is just one large bitching, just wanting to get some feedback on it. recently i had to lie to my parents about insense, candles, and a legal tea. i felt bad saying i had nothing else but whatever. they searched the ENTIRE house and found lots of shit. no pot, but like 50 bucks in salvia, 200 cigs, lots of other shit and they threw it all out. ive also recently had to go to this private school which is probably the most depressing thing. i got sent here because i told my parents i hate school and i dont give a shit about it. this is a school with all materialistic fuckers, yuppy shits. its a giant clich with no other groups. you are either in or out. anyway leaving all your friends to no friends sucks a bit. its not even that i dont fit in or anything, these peoiple i wouldnt even want to spit on, they dont even deserve that, they really are all shits. all my friends have turned into loser stoners. they ditch class now to get high, lie, spread bullshit, etc. great huh? i ended up getting drunk today and telling one off online (yeah i know), pathetic. i really said some hurtfult hings i guess but ya know thats what happens when i here someone spreading shit about me (which didnt turn out to be true). at work i request 1 day off everyone so often saying ill work every other night, and yet i get that day only that week. for instance this friday i couldve gone to a party with all my old friends and a bunch of people i know and i wouldve felt better but instead, after reqesting it off, i get it on and nobody wants to cover for me, and yet i cover for them if god forbid they wanna go to a fuckin movie for a day. Im 16 (no car ), yeah i have a house, paretnts, food, all the stuff. i understand my life isnt "bad" but right now im in a shitty situation. anyone have any ideas on how i can feel a little better about myself? and i dont really think alcohol or pot is the answer because alcohol, i dont wanan go down that path and pot is too hard to cover up when you parents constantly chekc you.
Wow you sound just like me when i was sixteen. The best thing for you to do about ppl thrashing your name is to ignore it. If ppl want to beleive what they hear let them cuz that just means they dont know shit about you and dont want to know you. cuz if someone wanted to know the truth they'd come up and ask you for the truth. Not having any friends has its ups and downs. You can make new friends or aquaintences and if you dont want to be friends with any of those yuppy losers tan that means theres just more you time . The whole work thing just shows responsibility. You request a day off and they put you on and you still go just shows that your job is more important and that in the future you will get a few days of or even promoted. Honestly hun you need to try and look for the positive things even if they are tiny. I hope I helped you in some way. *HUGS* Fallen Fairy
hah thanks, well the work situation has been goin on for like 2 monthes... and it was just my friends telling other friends who did end up asking me...its compliocated i know it will get better and in 2 years it wont even matter, but just venting my frustration thanks for readin
