to the compassionate people here...

i really, really, really want to go to rehab.. i know it's not even an option... i know if i love myself (which i do), that i need to go there.

there are a few things standing in the way though, and that is where the question i have lays....

i go to to school full-time,... i almost have my associattes and almost ready to transfer. school means everthing to me. besides me husband, my cats and family...school is right up.
right now i am taking a 6 credit math course (i suck at math)- but i need it for my major and i have a B.

i also have a new job and we need money.
i dont want to lose this math course or lose my job

however... i NEED to go to rehab... and i actually want it. it would be a much-needed "vacation" to think about me and my problem(s?).

well, my question is... i could go on xmas/winter break, but do i really wanan wait that long? i dont even know if i can. however, if i screw up this class (and my others but esp.this one- its like im screwing up what i really want)

on the flip-side, i really wanna be sober.

any advice would be awesoem. _

 

.... school and job will be there when you get back... will your life last that long? the way you talk about your addiction i'd be seeking help now.

good luck rehabs good for you it teaches you skills to live sober.

i worked at a treatment center for 3 years

 

thanks crystal... it's just this class that is holding me back from goign this weekend.


i am so torn!

 

Im happy you yourself realize you need help... Think of the cosequences of NOT going to rehab...do they outweigh the oes ifyoudo? Go!!all the power to ya!

 

what does your husband think?

 

i totally understand where u r coming from it is a tough decision, if u feel u can't risk leaving right now u could seek intensive therapy and/or support group.

 

With that demon on your shoulders, everything is hard.

Without that demon on your shoulders, so much more is possible.​

With that demon on your shoulders, you will be you with a demon dragging you down, lessening you, making you incomplete.

Without that demon on your shoulders, you will be YOU.​

Go fix yourself, babe. No more excuses.

From the heart with love,
ld


now go kick it's ass!

 

could you attend AA meetings instead? it would allow you your therapy time and school/work time.....

 

thats true you can go to AA and NA or intensive outpatient that wont affect your school


but you may need a complete break... so i dont know its your call... either way rehab or meetings will save your ass if you stay openminded

 

the problem is...and ive thouyght about thsi and discsussed it with dan...

it's not gonna be enough.

it just wont... i could go to a meeting, which i have been to before, and just wanna drink aftterwards.

i REALLY dont wanna go to rehab. i would miss so much of my life but it's come down to that, im ashamed to say, but it has.

 

atleast your not in denial girl....thats thefirst step to recovery

 

If I were you, Trish, I'd listen to Crystal.

 

this is gonna sound corny but it's right

as dr. phil says "you need to be in rehab before the sun sets!!"

get yourself in rehab and drop everything else, it's THE BIGGEST PRIORITY!!!! i'm talking from personal experience with family members that went too late. and other incidents. please please go to rehab and get help. if you get cleaned up the school will be soo much easier, life will be soo much happier for you and everyone around you. this isn't just your problem, it's a problem for you husband, family and friends.

 

It's easy to find a million reasons why you can't get clean "today".. Laundry, School, Survivor's on TV tonight. The things you listed that are priorities to you will be there when you come out.. They might NOT remain there if you do not seek help. Rehab sucks..While you are in it. I had to detox at home off a problem that I was hooked too a couple of years ago. It was one of the hardest things I ever did. But in the long run it was for the best.

If you have the brains to recognize that you have a problem, then you know what you got to do. Get the help you need. I know you are local. If you need to talk, PM me and I'll let you know how you can reach me. I hope all goes well. I wish you peace.

 

bIjatlh 'e' yImev. yItihutlh!

 

Do It!

 

i willl im just scaered.

can some of you people that are truly nice....

pm me in a day or two or remind me what i need to do in a nice way?

i really dont respond well to the assholes on here that tell me im worthless cause of my prob.

thanks.

 

Rehab doesn't work. They just take all your money, put you on pills, and spout some psycho-babble at you until your insurance runs out. Seriously, their success rates are close to zero.

 

that must have been a fucked up place you went to... they dont put you on pills(at least not the places i've been to or worked at)rehab is a good step FOR PEOPLE WHO WANT HELP.you have to want it for it too work.

 

I'm not speaking of any place I went to. I have a lot of experience working with people who go to these places and across the board, they do much more harm than good.