ah, so THAT'S the spiritual side of LSD...

so last monday i had about 4 hits of really good blotter, which was my second real LSD experience (the first one being about 5 weeks ago).

i was with one friend, he was eating mushrooms andi was dropping. we decided to just hang out at his house while we came up, and i took the tabs at 11 AM. around an hour later another friend picked us up in his car (he wasn't on anything but planned to smoke) and i felt it hit me, suddenly. i felt a massive headchange and everything seemed to slow down around me. we drove up the street and i felt myself rapidly beginning to trip hard. within 5 minutes from feeling that initial headchange, the world around me was alive and dancing. it was a bright, sunny day at around noon and i was in a car being driven down a main street. there were so many people out, and they all seemed to bounce and flow in this beautiful rythm. i felt this amazing energy at the top of my spine, almost in the very center of my head. it was extremely intense but also very pleasant.

after stopping by someones house and just sitting around playing music and talking, our friend with the car drove my other friend and i back to the initial house, which is where my entire world broke down. as we were getting close i felt, physically felt, like i had a disk or sphere in my head that was full of bad energy. the glowing, pure energy in my neck was gone and i felt this storm cloud in my head. i felt tears welling up and i was wondering what the hell was going on.

i went to my friends room and layed down on his couch. he was coming down from the mushrooms (this was about 4 1/2 hours after i dropped so i was hiting my peak) and i said to him "you're going to see a side of me you've enver seen before", becuase i knew that i had to deal with this thing in my head. i couldn't ignore it or wish it away, it was something that needed to be released and the only way to do that was to just let it happen. it felt almost like an emotional block in a physical form.

so i felt more and more uncomfortable and was wishing i'd gotten klonopin or something for this journey. my friend left the room and told me he'd be downstairs, which is exactly what i needed. alone now, i started to break down. iwasn't going insane, or feeling like i was going to die- i felt distinctly sane, and more human than i've ever felt. it was the purest kind of sadnes i've ever felt. running through my head were thoughts about how i keep myself shutr away from the world because i'm scared, and how i act like i can handle things that i know i can't (a lot of it's personal and i don't want to share everything, but it all was relevant and made sense to me. i was also sobbing like a baby). finally (i have no idea how long i was lying there), i opened my eyes and my visuals were more intense than before. i turned to look out my friends window and the sun was coming through it in that end of the day golden glow. it was the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. the clouds were twisting around and dripping, and i felt the unity in everything. i realized i didn't have to fear a "bad trip" anymore because it just happened, and it was painful but so meaningful that i wouldn't change a thing. i felt myself merge with reality and all of my fears melted. i looked through the sky and could see that my place in it was just as relevant as anything, and i felt the whole weight of the experience just dissipate into everyting around me, i felt perfectly aware of and in tune with the natural flow of the universe. i closed my eyes and felt each moment flowing out and realized i'd never have to get bored, never have to feel stuck, because everything's constantly moving and developing. i've never felt such a perfect sense of peace and comfort in myself.

i went down to see my friend and we spent the next few hours watching TV and joking around. the "block" was gone, and the energy in my neck returned, except this time it took the form of a very serene and eternal green emerald (that's how i perceived it). my thoughts felt like they came from a pure stream of water, pouring out from my core into the world when i spoke. i've never felt so amazingly human in my life.

i was having visuals and still felt VERY trippy until i went to bed, 17 hours after i dropped.

this caught me off guard, because my first LSD trip was rather unspiritual, and i didn't do anything differently this time (i dropped the tabs casually with friends both times). but now i know what people mean when they talk about the spiritual potential of LSD. besdies the first maybe two hours of the trip, the energy and unity i felt dominated the entire experience.

just wanted to share, thoguht maybe some of you might be interested and/or have some input. also, does anyone know if there's a spiritual energy point in the very center of your head/neck?

 

in short - acid has brought me to tears a couple of times. it wasn't necessarily sad though.

 

do all chicks cry more than guys on acid?

 

its amazing how uniquely in tune LSD is with the human experience. It really is special in that regard, no other chemical will bring you to your knees with deeply personal knowledge that you've been hiding from yourself or lying to yourself about.

 

i'm a guy.

and Mr.Writer i definitely know what you mean. even though i was crying, it was so incredibly comforting at the same time. i almost never cry or embrace myself so fully, and doing this during my trip was like a forceful reminder that i'm human.*

for the last ten days i've been feeling way more emotionally connected to myself, i'm so drawn to life. every few hours i change up and i'm all oevr the place, but i'd rather be too open than shut away like i was.

*no homo of course

 

sooo true, lsd once brought me to tears. i was just so deep in denial, and that day brought everything out. for the better, of course.

 

oopps! my bad. Sorry dude. I thought some one called you "her" in a previous post so thought you were a chick , hence my assumption.... I didn't say only chicks cry though. I cried once on 2 hits of really good stuff in the 80s and cried myself silly halfway during a long bikeride through the mountains of slc utah. I pulled over and sat on the railing blubbering about my young kids taken away from me by my recent x and deciding to move back to Hawaii...oh too much raw emotion. Since then I try to refocus the urger to get all weepy into anything else but. but when it happened it was a time in my life to let it all out.

 

I've cried on each and every trip. sometimes just a tear, sometimes veritable waterfalls from my eyes. always they are tears of joy, love and awe. always cathartic

as for the OP's question about energy in the spine and head: read up on chakras and kundalini energy I think that's what you're thinking about

 

sometimes i cry out the sorrows of the whole world, and sometimes i cry tears of eternal joy and bliss!

 

I've only cried on mushrooms, me and my friend were both bawling our eyes out in ecstatic laughter at the sheer jubilation of existence

 

no worries

i completely know what you mean about it being a time in your life. it's the exact same with me- for the past few years i'ev been having thoughts about the emotions that dominated the trip, and it was like it all just built up and came out on acid.

 

this thread makes me smile.

and Mr. Writer, good posts, as always

 

Cherokee Mist, cheers for sharing your story. Don't want to call it a trip report cos that always sounds way too clinical !

Just wanted to say that I remember having a similar experience many years ago, on my third trip. The similarity in how you describe the negative feelings and energies being purged out of your system really woke some memories in me...You've obviously got one very decent head on your shoulders to be able to take what could have been for some people a "bad trip" and turn it into something positive.

At the time of my experience, I thought I was having a bad trip...But a few hours later I realised that what had just happened was a reality check. And a large one at that It was me facing up to myself and realising that despite appearances and how I might have acted, I was a person living in fear. Of course, when the Oneness comes and shows you greatness in a million dimensions of kick-arse-ness and then tickles you into a thousand fits of laughter at the craziness of it all, you realise there's nothing really to be afraid of.

Anyway, sorry to kinda dig up this thread... the point of this was just to say nice work on the write-up and thanks...It was a cool read :cheers2:

 

in response to your last statement about center of energy or something in the neck/head

ive only tripped on cid once and that was 4 tabs and i flipped out and had a terrible experience. i remember that it felt as though my jaw was nothing, and that at the point where the back of the mouth meets the throat, the base of my brain was exposed so that everything could look into my soul and judge me

 

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man i wouldnt put it that way.. i dont think it is nessecarily spiritual it proly seemed liek that casue you were madddd trippin' lol, but i know what you mean. theres definately mass energy there and ive felt it, maybe because its the top of your spine idont know, mine felt green too, bright lime green.

 

girls definitely cry more than guys

last time I cried/almost cried was watching children of men. that final scene where the soldiers stop fighting when they hear the baby..
what a nice feeling, crying is.

crying is only bad if there is a horrible cause to the crying