Trip Report - Meaning of Life

9:00am partook of Holy sacrament.

About 40 minutes later I remembered that I took it, as a subtle wave coursed through my body. This began to intensify exponentially over the next 4 hours. I didn’t feel like smoking weed at all but felt at least one hit would be in order. For some reason bud just seemed like, ‘meh’… I was on a different frequency that what smoking usually does. Made sure to drink lots of water cause us old folks have to watch our kidneys. I’ll forgo all the typical walls breathing and melting, smelling and hearing colors, body flushing, mustache stroking, typical cliche' experiences and just summarize what I ended up focused on for part of the trip.
I wondered “why,” yes the dreaded “why” question.

I looked at a plant and saw why it is. One in particular was a Taro plant growing in the wild. You see taro was brought to Hawaii by the original peoples as a food staple. It was not found growing in Hawaii prior. Now centuries later, some plants still grow in the ancient areas but are not cultivated and grow on their own. The plant wants to survive even though it’s not being used the way it was intended…why? It has a pre-programmed “desire” if you will, to grow and reproduce and expand. This happens at the cellular level even molecular I believe maybe, Using a generalized term like “feels good” can be used as a description of all of life on an individual basis. A plant feels good when allowed sunlight, water and nutrients. An animal feels good when it can eat the plant. Man feels good when he catches the animal and picks the plant and eats them both.
I work because it makes me feel good. I eat because it makes me feel good. I feed my family because it makes me feel good. Charles Manson is in prison because what he did made him feel good. Mother Teresa helped the poor because it made her feel good at some level we do everything except die (unless we’re painfully terminal or expect to go to heaven) because it makes us feel good. I pay taxes because it makes me feel good not to get audited by the irs.

I think it’s all about feeling good.

 

So true. "Why" is waaay too human though. There is no reason, everything just "is".

 

processes process processes

 

Desire's a trap

Transcend the desire to feel good, and wonderful things may happen

 

that would make me feel good!

 

desire to feel good?
don't desire
don't desire not to desire

this past weekend, 'desire' was actually the primary focus in my meditation...

 

I discovered the meaning to life, on an acid trip. The meaning of life is to realize who or what you really are. So really the meaning of worldy life, where there are forms. We are actually formless awareness or pure consciousness! The world is a helper to let us know thyself, and after that its just for living the sensations as a separate watcher!

 

"Always without desire we must be found,
If its deep mystery we would sound;
But if desire always within us be,
Its outer fringe is all that we shall see."

Text from the Tao Te Ching

 

good stuff, but still about feeling good. :cheers2:

 

Not sure that I can agree with these words. Personally I think that there's nothing wrong with desire at all. It's the TYPE of desire that makes all the difference. A persons particular desires makes them what they are. I can't see a person being anything WITHOUT desire.

I mean, how can you gain wisdom if you don't desire it?

(or am I reading this poem too literally?)

 

Taro is my favourite bubble tea flavour.

 

sometimes i feel like that. sometimes i think a deep longing to be whole will lead to that. desire moves us towards the objects that we desire. BUT if our identity is already formed, we are already one, we are already infinity, then we must just realize who we are. will desire overcome the obstacles in our way? maybe, but once we realise the truth in it's most pristine state, i reckon we'd be pretty content with what we got by then.

 

same

 

Tool has an interesting song about this good - bad division. It's called Right In Two. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXEMBbtqaRk

 

Yeah I agree that it's a pretty cool and spiritually beneficial thing to realise about the basic structure of all that is, One and Infinity, as you say. But even knowing that, I wouldn't be content with what I've got...because I find half the fun of the trip is knowing all that AND being able to accept the gift and make choices that only "I" can make. Being able to HAVE desires and act upon them if we choose is what I think it's all about.

So you think our identities are formed and set, rather than under constant change?

 

maybe our identities are formed and set but our perspective and how we display our identity changes?

 

the thing you want is you

you are it

thou art that

dont feel bad for desire, of course entities desire entities

what is desire? an emotion? a mental process? you are that mental process as well

so it becomes

entities entities entities

or

desire desire desire

Ah, that's good to know!

Do you take sugar with your tea?

 

depends whats in the sugar

 

Hmm.. when I think about it..

the less I desire LSD, the more it desires me.

and once I forget about LSD, it finds me cause it'd been looking for me all along...

 

I love that