Castrate me please

Are they still making eunuchs these days?
Can I join the line?

I'd like to be feminised.
I had it with being a man. All of it. My sex disturbs me.
Life just doesn't feel good. I cried today. No place in for me In human land.

I get 'off' on making people feel me. And I feel bad
Do I make others feel bad? I don't know

Now I feel medium. If I didn't have testicles, maybe my Life would have even less of a point (PUN )...

I wouldnt be so distracted all the time thats for sure. Maybe I would have a viewpoint on purpose.

You think it's a good idea?

 

what do you mean by "making people feel you?"

 

What don't you like about being male?

 

dude...men fucking rule and if you say otherwise I will call you a pussy!
wipe the sand out of your vagina!

 

Just chill out. You should see someone in the know that can help you. Find someone who is experienced working with transitions.

 

Ty for responses

Massive tensions and pressures, erotic jealousy. The entire gender is under the illusion of being dominant, and in it's denial it reaches out for material object fetishism, among other dangerous Ideas of 'dominance'

I am donkey chasing a carrot on a stick. The carrot is Love. It is sweet and juicy. It is the highest and most esteemed reward for life yet the most difficult to attain
The carrot is held aloft by the women.
The carrot is eaten and the mad dash stops. Both I and the woman stop and stare into the hollow void which is an emptiness within and absence within an emptiness.

In my story there is no woman. They consider themselves in Love with others.

There are woman who tease and command me...rub my back and laugh at me. This is a small trickle of thrill I lap up on my way through the desert.
Then they return me to the desert. They say 'I love him...I am not single'.
They play with me like a cat plays with a dying mouse.
Crippled by lust again I am back to my hole.

I get touched and hugged but not love it seems.

-.-

 

I get castration fantasies sometimes. HAWT!

 

Oh. You don't know how to get women to like you beyond friendship.

What tensions and pressure do you speak of? Jealousy is a personal attribute, not a gender one. Just like pressure - people suffer from it or not, not depending on gender, but depending on themselves.

If you want women to like you as a man and not a male girlfriend, stop using metaphors so much, accept your gender, assume the assertive role of a man, and maybe to begin with target girls who are not attached. And don't be needy.

 

I think that is the pressure he's referring to. I don't accept it. There is nothing wrong with initiation, but flirting is enough to bag a lady.

Of course, there are women (and men) who like gender roles. But those tend to be the ones that bore me to tears in bed and out. First hand experience. There is nothing hotter than a woman who can be both assertive and submissive depending on the occasion. :cheers2:

Everything else I agree with, though. :hat:

 

I perform. I read poetry. I play flutes and dance. I draw pictures and paint.
I make conversation I laugh and joke. I have been sober here and stoned there.
I sit in the corner and relax or I stand in the circle and talk about dualism and Descartes or dimethyltryptamine or Norse mythology or McDonalds...the system,the institution, the University or the beauty of nature. I tell stories about the death of ego, communal hallucination and gaia, about adventures and history and the presence of creativity throughout all aspects of being..
I've been being as adaptive and changing and perceptive as possible all my life. Ive been fit, I open doors and get chairs. I help with heavy loads.
I offer jackets and pick things up from the store
I fetch lighters and cups. I moved out. I live at home. I worked, I've Lived on welfare, I've studied...been around the world...done everything except be in love.
I've had enough.
That's all.

 

What are you trying to say? What a great guy and catch you are?

People aren't going to like you for you until you like you for you. Don't do all these things you speak of unless you genuinely enjoy doing them, which if you did, you probably wouldn't be so depressed.

When I was 21, I thought I was in love, and I thought I'd been in love once before. It was simply endorphins, the joy of acceptance and closeness, and that is why it inevitably faltered.

You may think you have done everything, but you couldn't be further from the truth. Live your life. Enjoy it, for it is precious and we are fortunate to have it. Be happy. When you are happy, people are drawn to you and you can make them happy, in turn, they will make you happier. And you will surely find love.

If you are unhappy, it shines through in everything you do, and people do not like misery. If you are unhappy, how can you make someone else happy? If you can not make them happy, why would they ever want to be with you?

Cherea, that's a fair point. A better wording would have been "be yourself" and my natural self is an assertive man, which works out really well for me, especially with women. But "be yourself" has such negative connotations, and most people haven't got the slightest clue who they are anyways.

I completely agree with your assessment of fine women. I think this ability to be assertive or submissive when need be stems from confidence in your self and your abilities and has nothing to do with gender roles. I also think this defines fine people, and not just women.

 

This is where I leave you.
Progress through any conversation, Inspect the background of any given situation and you will make out the fireworks of success. Only still am I in the dark, far happier than faltering endorphins....yet somehow still not 'happy' enough to be in love.

 

stop thinking so much. do it in a cermonial way if you like. get outta your head.

 

What are you trying to say? Try using plain words. If this is how you are in your day to day life, no wonder you are miserable. I know I couldn't put up with someone speaking the way you do, especially if they were all melancholy and depressed all the time. Jeez.

 

So do you hate being a man and want to be feminized because you feel like a woman on the inside or because being a man just isn't working out for you?

 

I can see here that clearly you are too good of a person to be seeking advice amongst us lowly vermin... my sense is that your true message is a covert claim of superiority disguised as a cry for help... and there are those who may produce a dull butter knife from their silverware drawer and suggest you use it to follow through on your request yourself. I'm not one of those.

If you're truly experiencing frustration then perhaps you're just trying too hard in part because you are making your own happiness conditional on someone else. This is a very good way to set yourself up for disappointment. "Trying" to make someone love you likely means projecting something other than who you really are in order to attract. Don't tell people how much of renaissance man you think you are when you can simply relax and be yourself, happy in your own skin regardless of whether or not you feel outside love. That way you won't have to keep putting on an act just to maintain outside affection. No one is going to love you if you don't love yourself.

Careful about making generalizations... not every male is incapable of thinking past the primal lust or buys into a quasi-traditional gender hierarchy that supposes that women should occupy subservient roles.

 

Thanks for the responses lads and lasses.
They've been more helpful than you would think.
I've suffered long from my own tormenting and it's dissolving now so thank you.

 

i hate being horny all the time its so distracting

 

I see four possibilities,

1- your flaming
2- your depressed
3- you are very smart and cannot relate to people with less mental activity
4- your a creep, what was with that v

 

At a party, I once asked a girl on the far side of the room 'Do you want my cock?'. I was very crude, drunk and disgusting.
4 guys dragged me away into the kitchen. I grabbed a ceramic plate from beside the sink and smashed it over my head. I whacked myself across the face with a saucepan.

Later on in an act of condolence some guys were all stroking my back. That was nice.
I asked them If it was OK if I was gay. Only one of the four said yes. = \

At another party I tried sleeping outside under a tree. A girl noticed me and dragged me inside. I got uncomfortable and went back outside. She came and got me again. I was being very sullen and she gave me a back rub.

These are the things I have had to do in order just to be touched.

The most self-depreciating miserable girl I have ever met spoke about her boyfriend.
The most morbidly obese guy I have ever met happily tells me about an ex.

I saw a t-shirt today that said 'I am outta my mind but feel free to leave a message'
sums it up nicely. =)